when daydream starts......

[Kristen B. Scherzinger]

It was hot sunny day. I grabbed my mom's "pamaypay" (fan) and i started to tell stories by using the fan. I remembered telling stories using english and all of my family was laughing at me because i can't speak fluently in english. I was only 9 yrs.old on that day. The story i invented using my imagination it was like reality to me. On that day my daydreaming began. I made a lot of stories. I created some beautiful characters like a princess feeling it was me. and the story continued. I wrote it on small journal, i was thinking it was a novel i made and i continued writing.Years past, i watched concerts, movies and other music videos by my fav. singers and actors. Music makes me alive in everyday living. i can't start a day without listening to music. I asked my mom to buy me a musical  instruments like guitar and electronic keyboard. Then, i had it, i taught myself to play and i did it..These things are one of the triggers that my daydreaming getting worse.When i heard paramore or avril lavigne's music i start to daydream feeling i was the one who is singing like a rockstar.It feels so great,i'm like famous.When i saw OSCAR awards, i daydreamed that i was there grabbing the best actress award then preparing a speech to the crowd.Hell no that i was thinking that!..well a lot of topics/triggers that i can't remember to start my daydream..and i feel like i am a freak....

i never told this to anyone till i found this site.....i have no strength to tell to anybody specially my family...i don't want to get embarrass from this situation.... i am afraid so much afraid...and i am worrying about my health...

i hope you guys can advice me!!!

thanks!!

[Kristen B. Scherzinger]

i want to tell it also to my bestfriend. i think he will understand my situation.. i 'm hoping!!

[Kristen B. Scherzinger]

thanks paulina.... :)

[Paulina]

By this time only one person knows about my daydreaming - my best friend and I told her about it just a few days ago. But I'v never felt the need to tell somebody about it, because I'm introvert and I fell better when I handle my problems alone.

When it comes to triggers - mine are the same kind and I think most of the people here have same or similar triggers ;)

There was a time, when I was feeling like a freak. Especially when I started writing my daydreams down and I was afraid somebody will read them. But now the feeling's gone and I must say this page helped it a lot ;)

I think you shouldn't be afraid, especially of your health ;)

[Jane Wilson]

Karoke would not be so popular if there were not so many people who want to be or pretend they are singers.  I love music and the music I like can work as background for a particular scene in a story.  I usually refuse to watch music videos because my understanding of the song and video in my head are so superior it would just be disappointing.  On the other hand in the real world the only way I can carry a tune is by holding a radio.  Many people have day dreams where they are famous or achieve some goal that eludes them in real life.  I think the major difference for MD is that we have managed to provide for ourselves the positive emotions that life can promise but rarely delivers.  For me and I think many others there is no hope or intention to act on any of it in real life, for fear of failure, disappointment or other restrictions.  I avoid day dreaming about anything attached to a real life but that is just me.  I have done this a long time from the first memories of childhood until now and I am 56.  I have never shared any of this with my family.  The only person I could talk about it to is/was my best friend.  I have been trying to channel my creative energies into actual writing a stories.