Where wild minds come to rest
Freelancing at home on my computer, I received strong mental reflections of my past and how MDD has changed everything for me. If I had a perfectly normal mind (non-imaginative) that doesn't DD, I never would have received too much terrible and unpleasant feedback from so many people. I would have had better relationships and a circle of friends if I hadn't gone there; if my mind were different, I'd certainly pay more attention to others, be a more amiable, acceptable and respectable type of person, and know how to be socially polite and very well adapt. Otherwise, I never would have received poisonous remarks, put-downs, names, let alone unforgettable expressions and reactions.
I realize that we are REAL human beings; we are not dreams...we are not cuddly things, toys, hush puppies, ferries somewhere over the rainbow. We are going to show REAL emotions towards others, even in the ugliest ways ever, which is indeed normal, and looks and words sure can kill. We are going to be unpleasant and we are going to show it too! Flesh and blood we're made! Human.
Also, how can we travel to places we want to see, when doing DD? We'd lose our passports and wallets...luggage too. And at cocktail parties everybody would pat our shoulders and wonder if were OK...or just very, very drunk. Yes DD impacts everything we do and everywhere we go!
Of course, dating, love, marriage and family. Be the lucky one if your special someone wants to marry you—but your in laws haven't yet found out their grandchild will the son a MDD'er. It isn't like your criminal, but YOU might as well say "you took way too much ecstasy in your lifetime. Hope you won't pass it to your kids too."
And YES Career. You'll be lucky if you those 'top secret' kinds who can conceal those dazed eyes..and those unusual emotional crack-ups...or you didn't listen or remember what your supervisor said just 5 seconds ago...but can still wing it off somehow! Not everybody can do it, and I certainly not that cunning myself. There is a perfectly good reason why I'm gearing for self-employment.
We eventually learn that DD is not the answer to our problems. But we continue to do it anyway—but of course, we can't help it. Of course, we'll look super insane—when really we are just highly gifted people who think in different ways.