Up and Down - Mechanism

[Iris]

I felt quite ok in the last years, especially in the last weeks, daydreams came most of the time only like flashes during the day, far less than what I have experienced in my teens and twenties. I know about surpressed feelings like fear and anger, hormones and nutrition (I want to write about this in the forum). So I thought I'm on my best way to cope daydreaming.

Yesterday the down-mechanism hit me again. I thought I had made a mistake at my job (accounting), due to my lack of concentration. (Something concerning the year 2012 and that is now difficult to make it right again.) In the evening till this morning my daydreaming was blooming, my dd-charakters came to a wonderful life out of their sleep, they felt good but I didn't.

I feel so helpless, that this mechanism hit me again, even though I understand it. I new the exact reason why I daydreamed, I hated it, but at the same time I was glad I had it to comfort me.

In addition, it was such a minor problem, nothing serious I should have worried about. I just have to look for a solution together with my colleagues - that's all.