Things never seem to get better.

[littleschrodinger'scat]

I know a lot of people on here hate their MD and want to stop DDing, but that isn't something that I'll ever want (not that there is anything wrong with not wanting it). I just feel like I must missing something because I can't want to live in this world like they do. I just don't really feel like this world is worth it. I can't be happy in this world like I can in mine. I can't feel real in this world or present. I can't be happy with other people because I can't connect with them. I feel like I was born on the wrong planet.

I titled this 'Things never seem to get better' referring to how I'm always depressed in this world, but I don't want to get better. I don't want to be happy in this world. I hate this world and all I want is to be in my own. 

[Amoka]

I used to feel this way a lot, like this world wasn't worth living in, and that I wasn't meant to be born into it. But I decided that this is the world I was born into and I have to just make the most of it and make it better. I can't do that while I'm daydreaming though, so that's why I don't want to have MD.