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Scared that I was alone

I have been doing this thing for years. I never thought it to be daydreaming, I would pretend my friends are in my house and other people too. I have a pretend cousin that would sit on the couch with guys and one of the guys I would really like. I would have conversations with them and know in my head what they would say. I would do this all day. When I watch TV or are on the PC it would stop. I do it when I'm bored. I think I'm lonely. I have friends but I'd rather pretend they are there instead of actually having them here. I feel more complete when I do this. When I don't I'm really depressed and lay on the sofa and sleep. Sometimes at night I can't sleep unless I pretend I'm laying with this guy I have a crush on. I always pretend its our first time having sex. It's never sexual cause I don't masterbait it's more emotional. For years I struggled with this no one knows. Recently I realize I do it when in not home ex. Other ppl house when they leave the room. Hotels. I thought god I'm crazy. So I researched then finally I came across MD. I want to seek help any suggestions?

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Comment by Mitch on March 22, 2013 at 8:42am: I've actually realized that I was sir pressing a lot of events In my life. I'd think that my issues weren't bad enough to feel bad for myself cause others have been through worse, basically down playing my bad expierences. I found out that I was angry with my mother (trying)to deal with that now. I think she might be the route of this MDD cause she never let me go out when I was young. Don't get me wrong I enjoy being with my friends and they love having me around I'm usually the one that had everyone laughing all day, but after a couple of hours I want to go home and pretend. I don't think I'm anti social.

Comment by Pascale on March 22, 2013 at 7:27am: Is there a reason you do not feel safe with other people (have somebody hurt you a way or another?) Your feelings are there for a reason. Be detective, ask them where they come from, thank them, they have been helping you once. But they can try to protect you from something that is over. Tell them you do not need them anymore (Thats what my concelor tells me.)

Comment by Mitch on March 22, 2013 at 7:03am: Thank you Pascale, I have tried to hang out more, but I still do it before I leave and if it was a good night (met a guy) or what ever, I can't wait to get back home and pretend that everyone came back to my place. I feel the only time I'm safe is when I'm outside.

Comment by Pascale on March 22, 2013 at 5:07am: You are not alone welcome in this forum. In the forum there is several suggestions of what helps. But none of us are expert so you have to make your own mind.

Peraps beeing more social, more personal with your friends may help.