Where wild minds come to rest
For the last couple of weeks or so I've found myself to be generally more productive, upbeat and determined to accomplish something. The majority of these accomplishments have been more on a personal level which don't hold much merit in the eyes of others but either way I'm trying to do something with myself. I've sat in this room for going on 9 months now not doing anything other than lounging around on my arse and feeling sorry for myself. I've come to accept the people in my head are not my enemies and although at times they make life hard or put me down or get in the way of things if I give them the time they deserve they can be formidable allies.
I've been playing around with an idea in my head for a while now but I've come to decide that I'm going to build a world. As many of you know I train in lucid dreaming and out of body experiences. So far I've had some amazing experiences and now I'm moving onto bigger things. I'm going to build a world. A world I can find when I become lucid and return to when I want. I've entitled this Project Eden. I suppose I've named this after the Garden of Eden ,although an Atheist myself ,but I can always appreciate the concept.
I've started drawing out maps, building layouts using game engines like UDK as well as planing routes on how to get there. The moment I become lucid I will need to find possible portals. For example if I go through a door I will end up on the beach and if I go through a mirror I'll end up in the forest. The reason a mirror leads to the forest is because as a child my sister told me she went through my parents mirror and ended up in an enchanted forest.
There are several things I know I'm including in my world such as a house where all my voices/alters live so I can visit them as well as the house I daydream about where me and my daydream partner live. Also characters I have invented for stories will exist there as well. It will be a lot of work and I don't think I am advanced enough to do this yet but if I keep practicing and believing I will get there. Some of you my not think what I am doing is going to be good for me in the long run. If I build a world that's so good I may never want to wake up but I don't see it that way. I see it as when I'm awake I can focus on tasks that need to be done in reality but when I sleep I live in my daydreams and fantasies.
I haven't a lot of drawings to show at the moment as everything is just rough drafts and sketches but I'll have more for you guys later.