My Story So Far

[Lauren]

My name's Lauren, I'm a teen and I have MD. I am a self diagnosed Maladaptive daydreamer and only just found out recently. I don't really know whether I see Maladaptive daydreaming as bad/ good, it just feels almost a natural part of my personality. When I'm on my own I'll usually sit in front of a mirror and go into a daydream for hours whilst whispering/ mouthing things to myself like I'm in a proper conversation, does anyone else do that? I'll tend to find I'll start this at like 10 o'clock at night and then the next thing I know it's 2 o'clock in the morning. School wise, I'm quite intelligent so I don't really struggle at school, but I find it difficult to get myself to stop from daydreaming and to do homework. I also tend to drift off a lot during lessons and completely blank out (sometimes the bell goes and I literally haven't 'heard' anything the teacher has said for the whole lesson). Another thing I should mention is that I'm very socially awkward and if I can avoid social situations I will. However, I have found that having a very close group of best friends helps me a lot, especially when my best friend knows about my MD-ing and helps try to get me out and about, whether it's just going out for a coffee or going shopping. I do still get anxious about social situations and tend to think the worst of strangers when I'm outside.
I don't really think I necessarily try to stop my daydreaming, I tend to try and think of it as this creative energy I can utilise. I am very creative and love fashion design and sculpting (I find painting immensely boring but that's just me). Another thing is a couple of years ago I wrote a novel, admittedly not a particularly good one but it was fun writing it.
Anyway, I don't really know why I posted this other than to bore people to death but I guess, because I haven't come across another person with MD before I'd like to share experiences and see how MD affects their life. I always felt very alone in this until I found out my daydreaming actually is a condition and there is a community of MDers.

[taffle]

Welcome to Wild Minds! I also talk to myself out loud a lot, at home of course. I try not to do it outside unless I have a cell phone with me, then I can pretend. When I was in school, I also tend to space out and couldn't concentrate, especially when the lectures are boring. I don't have a close knit group of friends because all of my friends mostly don't know each other real well. So I connect individually to each of them. I'm also socially awkward and very avoidant of social situations.