Where wild minds come to rest
Hey guys, so my membership was recently accepted a few days ago and I am now a member of this forum. So I guess I have to introduce myself and tell my story. So here it goes:
My name is Raphael, I am 16 years old and I am here because I am a maladaptive daydreamer. I never really knew when it started, I do remember “daydreaming” when I was little but I’m not really sure. But I guess it became more apparent recently and that was when I started searching about it. That was how I found out about MD. I was really surprised that this “thing” I do actually had a name for it, and that I wasn’t the only one doing it.
For all my life I have always been the silent kid. I have always tried to kinda fit in with everyone else but it the end it never really worked out well for me. To make things worse, I also have some speech disorders (Stuttering and Cluttering).Socializing and “fitting in” became really challenging. Luckily, I still have a few friends, but most of the time, I would end up being the “outcast” in my class. This happened a lot when I was in elementary and I got bullied a lot because of it.
I daydream about a lot of things, but I mostly end with the 2 fictional characters that I made up. The first one is basically a clone of myself. He has my habits, my personality, etc. I’ve always thought of him as my “imaginary best friend”. I talk to him when there’s no one to talk to. And every now and then I would talk about my problems to him. I have always been kinda reluctant to talk about my problems to real people so I usually tell it to him.
The second one is… well I don’t really know how to describe her but I have always considered her as my “imaginary girlfriend”. I have always daydreamed about doing things with her like singing, dancing, etc. It has been a long time since the last time I’ve experienced love and I can get really lonely sometimes and I guess it makes everything a little better.
I have read a lot of stories and blog posts before I was approved and I guess its nice to know that there are people out there facing the same struggle. I hope that I can help someone in this forum and I hope that we can all past through this somehow!