My life right now

[Caitlin]

Hi everyone,

I haven't been doing very well. I have been stopping my DDing but I always catch myself DDing in small amounts without even realizing it and I feel like I'm going to end up completely dissociated from reality if I don't get a handle on it. I know some people on this site don't want to let their daydreams go but I WANT them gone. I'm so sick of having to daydream things to feel. I'm fucking tired of having to daydream to distract me from my boring life that is devoid of passion and merit. I'm so sick of being so messed up. Why can't I just live life without MD. I sound so melodramatic and I'm sorry for anyone who's actually going to read this but my life just sucks and I need to write this and get it out. I also cut myself yesterday. I did it so I could feel something. I swear to god I don't know what I'm doing.

[Roel]

I wish I could lend you some of my happiness :(

Please be strong and hold on untill the bad times are over