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i was one click away from spilling my darkest secret.

So, me and my friend were arguing. She kept saying how her life was soooo awful and mine is so much better. It was annoying the **** outta me! Her life is so great she has no idea how much she has. but any time I mention all the starving other kids out there whos parents have just been shot dead and who knows what else she goes whatever. Ok, i need to calm down because im getting way to worked up over this.. I had no intention of ever telling anybody until she said this:" yeah, you keep living in your fantasy world while im out here in reality." then the idea struck me..She should know about my MD and everything its caused. i had it all typed out and everything. i was so angry at that point i just wanted a LITTLE ounce of pity from her instead of hearing about her "miserable" life!!! Even though its beyond even a smidge of sad. My family is broken beyond repair and i have to empathize with her all the time about how her mom tends to yell at her and how its the worst thing that could ever happen. Dont get me wrong i love this girl but it just makes me absolutely insane how she thinks my life is perfect just because i dont complain about it. >:( alright i guess im done ranting.... But now i realize i am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO glad i didnt hit that send button spilling my MD secret. First off

because honestly she wouldnt care and it would downplay it to nothingness. Secondly, after shes blown it off as nothing she would think im even more of a freak. No, i couldnt have that. I would question every thing she says after that wondering if shes thinking about my secret.. I just dont know...

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Comment by Skylar Grey on April 1, 2011 at 11:42am: Yes thankyou. Ill take all that into consideration. I can see what your friend was getting at. The thing is i never complain to her about MY problems so she just assumes its perfect. which isnt right because ive got a lot more than just MD up my sleeve. But everybodies different and while MD may not be as harmless to some, it definietly taken its toll on my life. Anyways; thankyou your advice HAS helped and i appreciate that.

Comment by Sara Monster on March 30, 2011 at 8:28pm: Iknow how it fells to have a friend tell you that their life sucks and your life is perfect. My best friend did that to me a tooonnne last year. I admit, her life was kinda hard last year, and maybe I've complained to her about small things before, but never like that. It put's you in a horrable postition where you don't know what to say to make it better.

Her Dad had just been in a motercycle accident, she had to do more work at home, she couldn't do homework and her parents are hard on her. She saw my life better, my parents don't nag me to clean and let me live in slop, I'm aloud to procrastinate, use the computer whenever I want etc. Basically her belt's too tight, and mine's too loose. I had to be there to pick up her broken pieces and take whatever theoretical punches she threw with a kind tongue.

It's true no one's life is perfect.

Anyways, sorry for my little rant... I know what you mean in coming close to telling your deep dark secret, I've been there to, but I don't think Daydreaming is that big of a deal, it's just in your head. I'm sure she wouldn't think you're a freak for daydreaming to a point where it makes life hard. You shouldn't worry too much about keeping it sealed, but it's your choice. You can do what you want.

Comment by Skylar Grey on March 29, 2011 at 8:35am: Yeah the thing is im far from strong-willed, and i will put up with a lot of crap before i finally draw the line. But yes youre absolutely right. When the times comes (which im sure it will) and i decide to tell someone about my MD i promise to be as strong as i possibly can and "stick to my guns" haha. Writing it out is a great idea thanks!!! Oh no worries i will definietly brag all about that stuff because thats the best part :)! No i am not in that group but i'd love to join in! I cant thankyou enough. God bless.

Comment by Cordellia Amethyste Rose on March 28, 2011 at 11:44am: Living openly feels a lot better, but I'm also really strong-willed and won't let anyone tell me I'm wrong. It takes a lot of explaining, and sticking to your guns as people are likely to dismiss and roll their eyes at what they don't understand. If you do tell, maybe practice writing out what it is and what it means to you first. Then bring up the studies being done and that over 1,000 people are talking about it online. Also be sure to brag about how extra creative and smart we often are. You can also brag that you're part of a big movement to educate people about this. I'm not sure if you're in Cynthia's study or not (some people filled out questionnaires for her awhile back), but if you are, I'd brag about that. Brag about the strength it takes to live in dual worlds. Brag about the struggles we go through with concentration and whatnot. Brag about how creative we are. Explain and brag, and don't let anyone tell you you're wrong. Remember if doctors don't even know about this, they certainly aren't in a position to know.