Where wild minds come to rest
Im a young woman, with obvious hearing loss due to my internal addiction. Im starting to realize how MDD is taking a toll on me physically and literally. Any addict, doesnt realize in the moment how what theyre doing effects their entire life. When they take a step back and look at the bigger pitcure, then they see how fueling whatever gets them high, actually ruins everything they value. I call walking around with headphones on "surface using". Its when my DD is at its most intense level. My ears hate me for it. I have no job. No real friends. I flunked out of school. Im afraid to live, because i never have before. DD is the only thing i know how to do, because its the only thing ive ever done. I dont want to die like this, and i certainly dont want to live like this. This isnt living. This is hiding.