Where wild minds come to rest
Hello. I'm Elizabeth, a seventeen year old British student who'll be leaving home this autumn for university (provided my exams go to plan). I thought I might as well introduce myself before launching myself into this community.
I saw this place a while back, thought "Huzzah and hallelujah! I'm not alone, and these people are saying it's possible to regain control of your mind and get on with your life!" I then proceeded to not do anything about it for a few months because, unsurprisingly, I was daydreaming and never got round to it.
To be fair, I don't just waste my time daydreaming - YouTube is also a big drain on my time and I'll spend hours randomly surfing the net, but if I lock my laptop away and prohibit myself from reading books or watching TV, I will just send the hours DDing instead. I've got a lot of questions about other people's experience of MDD, but I don't want this to turn into a Russian novel so I'll put that in my next blog.
On weekdays I usually spend about 6 1/2 to 8 hours either on the internet or, more often, DDing, depending on what mood I'm in. It's already impacted on my grades and self-esteem, and is beginning to damage my attendance and my already sparse (compared to non DDers) social life. On weekends I can spend anything up to ten hours, although not normally on the same narrative any more. As it turns out, this isn't a good idea in your final year of sixth form/ high school (qn. do I need to translate British terms, or do will anyone who's American know what I'm talking about anyway?).
As I said, I find it difficult to get around to doing things (I'm supposed to be writing an essay or revising for an exam on Wednesday right now) so I'll probably be a trickle/flood poster, or whatever they're called.
So yeah. If you've made it to the end, thank you for reading my first, tentative steps into the practise of blogging. Hopefully I'll be less rambling in subsequent posts, and I look forward to speaking to you all.
*Takes deep breath*