Feeling more myself again.

[Angel]

The migraine came on anyway, last night.  Thursday and Friday I took my abortive medication which only helped delay it happening.  I felt funny the whole time.  Now that I have the headache, most of the other funny symptoms are gone.  Thank you!  Pain I can deal with.  Pain meds and a little coffee today, by tomorrow I should be all better.  Since I'm no longer feeling strange my brain is mostly back to normal.  I can daydream freely, think freely, and function.  Its pretty good, once upon a time I would not have been able to function on a migraine.  I'm lucky to have Dr. C who is knowledgable and was able to find meds that help.

 

So I'm daydreaming and also playing three different video games and reading a book.  I'm also starting to feel a little bit inspired to begin work on my friend's armor for her mod, click to see a previous set I made.  I'm also thinking of a way to get one of the characters in my head out and into the game, not sure if I will follow through with it.  It might be weird to actually see one of my fantasy characters.  Got so many things in my head right now.  My brain just wants to stay busy.  I think this is how I control my anxiety.  If I don't keep my brain occupied, then I worry obsessively over every little thing.

 

News update:  I told my fiance about my MD on Friday.  He was really good.  I was afraid that he would want to know details of my fantasies, but he didn't really ask about that at all.  He just listened and seemed to understand.  He also thinks I need to talk to my counselor about my agoraphobia/misanthropy.  On Saturday, he took me to see a bar that his friend owns.  I didn't want to go in because of the "people".  He was able to coax me in.  We played pool for a little while and shared a Sprite.  Some guy came up to us because he like our Transformer jackets (almost matching!  geek alert!)  He mostly talked to my fiance, but I thanked him for the compliment.  I did OK, except for the cigarette smells wafting in from outside was bothersome and there was an annoying woman who was rather immature.  Our pool table was in the corner so that was great in my book, as isolated as you can get in a bar.  I kept thinking the dude at the other table was looking at us creepy...  I hate it when people look at me or at us.  It was probably nothing, but that's how I feel.

[Angel]

The armor is for Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion.  I made it for a friend's mod, well, she is one of my internet friends currently living in France.  I've never met her, but have talked to her more than most people face to face.  Funny that.  Like you I don't daydream about my real identity, except back when I was a teenager.  Now there is always representation of me that isn't the "real" me.  I don't daydream about my games either, but I like to have a good story & personality for my characters so I can roleplay them appropriately.

[Jane Wilson]

I looked at the armor/character.  Is this part of a game?  I play WOW but some times I get tired of it and go do other stuff.  My picture is my character "Devadrain" at around level 74 she is level 80 now.  I also use her for my facebook.  I have never liked my own photograph.  Unlike many of the MD blogs, I never do day dreams about my real identity.  I always have a different character, nor do I day dream WOW although I did come up with a great storyline I thought was funny.  My son would share your feelings about crowds, he is very aware of his surroundings.  I am the opposite.  I have so much going on in my head that most of the time I am oblivious to crowds.  Unless you cross my vision and get my attention , I will never know you are there.  Although due to age or medication I am a little better when shopping, although I will never remenber anything about any of the people around me.