Where wild minds come to rest
I'm typing this because it feels like signing a contract. I want to stop DD, right now, today, not tomorrow or next week or next month, now.
Simce I DD from early childhood, this will be my biggest challenge so far. And my biggest fear.
But I guess I've reached my breaking point. If I don't stop I'll go mad. I'm 21 and when I look back I don't recognize myself. I want my life back, actually, I want my mind back. I want to see things, see through a window without having millions of thoughts and stories passing somewhere between my eyes and mind.
Sometimes I'm lying in bed and I 'wake up' from my DD and I wonder: How in the hell do I this?
Then, after that, I start pity myself for wasting my whole life, and after that.. I continue to DD.
So.. Contract signed. I feel silly doing this, but I have to start from somewhere and this is the right place. Wish me luck!