Where wild minds come to rest
Hi everyone. So, I was doing pretty good for a while, up until just a week or maybe two weeks ago. I was doing good, not only with Maladaptive Daydreaming, but depression and stuff like that as well, but now it's like everything that's happened in the last few years is hitting me really hard.
Those things that happened in the last few years are Maladaptive Daydreaming, depression caused from obsessing over things I try not to think about, and other things that I can't remember at the moment. Anyway, right now I'm fourteen and in 8th grade and it's just starting to hit me really hard that I have to worry about things that other people my age don't have to worry about. I have to deal with things they don't. I feel like I have a barrier around myself, blocking me from the people I interact with during the day. I feel so, so, so different from them all. I feel like a different species from the people in my classes and my school. I'm not that different, but I feel different. The barrier is blocking me off of my friends too. I'm not actually spending less time with them, but I don't show myself (as in what I'm dealing with) as much as I used to, therefore, blocking myself off. But my friends don't notice much. They don't really notice how much I'm hiding. No one notices how much I'm hiding, and I'm talking about much more than MD.
Anyway, just wanted to get this off my chest. Feeling like this barrier is blocking me from people hasn't been happening for too long, but I'm starting to get a bit scared of that and some things that I have not mentioned in this blogpost.