Abnormal Living

[Silla Bakht]

hi,friends today i am going to share something which i feel that is very personal.We all know that it's very hard to stop MDD but i am trying from last 2 or three years i do lot of abnormal activities like talking myself and making faces and even used my hands  while acting according to my story.It seems ridiculous but i know it's very hard to stop i feel that i can't face the world .This thought is getting stronger and stronger with time. Everytime i inside feel that life is so boring and am a useless person. I feel that i couldn't do  anything good in life. I always feel negative results before starting any work.I listen a song more than hundreds of time and even i get bore and my story never completed and i stop  thinking about previous one and start making a new one.And one interesting thing about my story is that i always the main character of the story and never changes. I usually dont participate in any family or social event and people think negative about me.This is the reason i am always far from my family.I am deprive of real life.I just used to spend more than half day in my room spending in listening walking or doing MDD.When i get bored with my story i use computer than again i do the same. i really forget that when i don't do MDD.In every condition and even someone talk to me i am usually not in the present situation but in my day dream world.

[Sammy]

I'm like that, too. Sometimes I think life is boring, and I don't like to hang out with the family much. But there's always at least one thing in life that will make you happy even if you don't like it. You just have to look. Lots of people have the same problem as you do, as they are daydreaming and are stuck in their minds.

[Silla Bakht]

Jessica it seems that you are telling about my story, i am suffering  from the same circumstances and i am depressing day by day

[Jessica]

I feel totally useless right now. I made a promise to myself last night that I would no longer daydream at all and that I would spend the next 10 months trying to fight anorexia. I woke up this morning feeling pretty good. However, that feeling left quickly. I caved in and I daydreamed for about an hour. That's not too bad considering I usually daydream for about 5 hours at once. I just feeling like I'm never going to get better and move on with my life. It's depressing and it makes me feel like total crap. All of my family and friends are doing great things with their life and growing and developing and living, while I'm spending my time daydreaming about it.

[Silla Bakht]

It seems good that that i am not the only one who is suffering or surviving from this situation.Thank you people sharing your thought and feelings about MDD.

[taffle]

I also can relate. My daydreaming has grown less and less as I discover new hobbies and passions. But I still get a high from my daydreams whenever I need to. I can't eradicate it completely.

[Larry]

I can definitley relate to that. My MD went totally crazy in my teen years/ early 20's.
I think it got bad because of the stimulants (coffee and cigarettes) I was using to treat my ADD.
I too would act out physically with my DD's. Even when I tried to hide the fact that I was DDing in public I would still be accused of giving people dirty looks. I was completely unaware of it. Even at the age of 40 I still have problems with it, though not as intense.I am still a loner though.
I found hope in finding this website and continue to find hope in the fact that there are people right now actively searching for answers.