A bit about me...

[Mишка (Miska)]

In this world there are few kinds of people. There is there is bad and there are some in between but I am not sure which of these I am. it depends on perspective after all, if you need me you would be able to choose. But for now we'll just go on the information that I must tell you. I admittedly am very self-conscious person, sometimes I don't know the words that I want to speak at least the short-term words anyways therefore I must speak in a way that's over scientific to others. People find this unappealing in others and therefore see me as stuck up or too smart. Sometimes I honestly wish that things were different. I wish I wasn't constantly chatted upon in negative manner by others regarding my intelligence. I wish other females would get along with me. I wish that I could find someway to be emotionally attached to other human beings, as sometimes it is hard for me to feel that way to express my emotions is very difficult that is a task and willing to learn. Sadly it seems that every time I do become emotionally attached to another human being they turn around and either leave me or hurt me. In such cases I find rather upsetting for me. But I try hard I try to keep emotionally attached to those who might understand me. Sometimes when I do feel as though I found a friend to keep it's difficult because they seem so far away and yet they are so close. Very few people have caught my attention but those who have have been told so by myself, in doing so however I usually destroy the relationship I find it that is my own fault. I do try hard to keep any relationship intact however even the smallest and most miniscule ones I could wait forever to see afriendly face again. I cannot betray my loyalties to those who have treated me favorably, and that is why I don't mind waiting very very long to see someone again in spite of not seeing someone so very long. It is my livelihood to Alone... I suppose that's it for now

[Mai Xiong]

I understand how it hurts when you felt friends have betray you in some ways. I am a bit of a wander and loners, but in the end no one is truly alone or wants to be alone. I think that is why you would choose to wait very long to see someone you trust. Maybe someday you'll come to understand why.

[Cody]

Just keep being present and patient and hopefully you will make some connections. That's my plan and I hope it works someday.  Stay Strong.

[ShellyBelly]

I know exactly how you feel but you know what Miska, this just means that you are working THROUGH your feelings. It's a good thing. It means you are not stagnated by them. You are on the path to self discovery and a deeper honesty which is worth more than a thousand circles of friends. I too have found people to betray or just flip their personalities on me. I have learned the hard way that not everyone is worthy of my friendship. Only quality people will be in your life and what I have found is that while my social awkwardness has in some ways hurt me, it has also kept my delaying with harmful people to a minimum. That is what you have to consider.  When people leave, they really are doing you a favor. :-)