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Hi,

 I'm new to the group, and, like everyone else, really just amazed to learn that there are others like me. I'm in my 40's and have had this "habit" since I was three or four years old. Music is my trigger - twirling.  MD has been very problematic for me, costing me personally and vocationally. I have deep regret over all of the time that I've wasted in my life. But, I can actually say that now I fantasize less, mainly due to the pain over the realization of the time/opportunities/relationships that have been impacted by my habit. The truth is, I have not grown personally or professionally in the ways that I might have, had I not had this disorder. At it's worst, I was wasting several hours a day, turning down socializing and not fully living up to my responsibilities. Yes, it felt good at the time, but now I am living with some challenging, long term consequences that I didn't intend. Please, if you're young and are reading this, turn outside of yourself with your creative life. Write, draw, paint. Take classes, become curious and purposeful about life lived free from md. Still working on this myself, but these things have helped me, along with time and wisdom. Hoping that some of you will not end up with the regret and guilt that I am coming to terms with; but if you do, forgive yourself, pray and seek help.

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Comment by Skylar Grey on January 20, 2011 at 2:47pm
wow yes like others have commented i would really like to learn a valuable lesson from you because i am only 14 and i have serious doubts that MD is not so bad and i will stop when im an adult... im not entirely sure.. thankyou for moving me a step towards recovery and i hope i can learn more from you.
Comment by phoenix62 on January 17, 2011 at 10:23am

I can understand your-what?-frustration?

I do recall when I was a teen and getting therapy in a group home I was FORCED to be with others, yep.

I was not permitted to be alone, because the therapist knew what my problem was. They had no name for it, mind, they just attributed it to depression...and a coping skill I acquired because I was literally ignored in the foster home I lived in, and wasn't permitted to have any social life.

I still had trouble with it well into adulthood, but when I was in the service, and after I had my son, I just stopped, I didn't need it, I suppose? I recently had a major depressive episode, and the damn problem came BACK. Meh. I think my only cure is to stay busy and not permit myself to MD?

 

I wouldn't beat yourself up, like Cordellia and others are saying, just take what you have and move on, that's all you can do, ya know?

 

Comment by sada on January 15, 2011 at 8:58am

     I HAVE TAKEN OATH  I WILL NEVER DAY DREAM AGAIN ...........

   NEVER......

NEVER......

NEVER......

NEVER......

NEVER......

NEVER......

NEVER......

NEVER......

NEVER......

 

EVERY TIME I DREAM I INSIST MY SELF TOO TAKE MY SELF IN REAL WORLD 

 

Comment by sada on January 15, 2011 at 8:55am
you have gave me a very very important message, i m 22 and dream alot plz i need your futher guidence           plz help me
Comment by sada on January 15, 2011 at 8:51am
Hey i day dream and i m 22 , a  leasson i learn from you that how it going to distroy mine if i dont take its care,
Comment by Renee on January 13, 2011 at 8:32pm
agreed.
Comment by Cordellia Amethyste Rose on January 8, 2011 at 8:45pm
Exactly, and feeling guilty will not help even a little.  There are so many worse things you could be addicted to than your own brain.  We can learn to live this away.  Regret will only hold you back.  It's completely useless.

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