Where wild minds come to rest
I'm Jennifer and am 20 years old. I must have joined this site when I was about 14-15 years old and have not visited it in a few years. I am glad to see it is still here.
I used to daydream every single night. I started a plot with characters when I was about 8 years old...I am almost 21 now and am still using the same story line and characters. Rather than daydreaming every night like my old habits when I was in middle and high school, I daydream only a few times a month now.
I had a question for you all: Last night I daydreamed for 4 continuous hours for the first time in weeks, and when I woke up this morning I was extremely depressed that my daydreams are not my real life. I actually cried quite a few times at work today because I was so distraught over this. It has never affected me quite this bad, but I really seemed to realize how lonely and isolated I am in real life. In my head, I am everything I've always wanted to be. In real life, I'm still working on myself. And in my head, I have at least 6 other girl friends...In real life, I have none.
I have just been so depressed about this all day. Has MDD ever affected any of you like this before?