Where wild minds come to rest
It's already 2017, huh?
I apologize that I haven't come here again since my last visit. And maybe I will seldom to come here anymore. Because, thankfully, my MD is reduced greatly. I've finished my comic (although not editing yet), and it really helps me because I pour my minds :)
Sometimes I still dding, when I was sad. Cannot tell, but some incidents happens. But life goes on, my dd not turn into dangerous thing like back when first time I make this account.
I wrote this as I don't know whether I had to kept it or not... But here we go.
So after the incident in village ended, I met my ex-crush. Well as usual our relationship was emerging then fell off when he start to brushoff every convo that I start it first. I know it's already happened many times. I still felt care for him because he doesn't have friends. I even don't know if I really fell in love, or I only felt pity, or I just don't have something to argue with.
I realized I…Continue
It's interesting when I saw a drawings of witches and their story in here, especially about Finland. The comments are good to add more knowledge, and make me expanding my dd about Wizards.
So my dd began with a story about a group of wizards live in Finland. Well, their age cannot be counted, but they experienced being hunted in Middle Age when they celebrate the year of…Continue
I really have no idea today, so I just post some poets that I made while dding.
Some of them are in Indonesian, sorry :(
Berdarahnya salju, akhirnya kamu melakukannya
Bintang menghilang tanpa pamit
Kereta tak berhenti berjalan
Melewati merahnya saljumu
Antara peluru atau pisau?
Sebuah baja tumpul dan besi tajam?
Aku akan mengatakan
Berdarahnya salju, aku hanya melihatmu…
Honestly I don't know what to write about... because there's so many occurrence between January till now. I'll just sum up as possible:
1. the uni gave big project to its students to doing duties for remote places. From january to february. usually villages. I was so busy to prepare for exam too, and I just came here once to changed profile picture.
2. the internet connection was so low even I brought my mobile-router in village. Even that router can't caught many connection since…
Added by Fitri Kamelia on March 16, 2016 at 9:17am — No Comments
After thinking for awhile, I decided to record all of my new dd. By drawings, of course.
And I just like it about somehow it linked to my previous DD that I called Dark Tears. Actually it began with one minor character named Semyon. He was representative of my odd friend who choose to freed his life and devote himself to work at orphanage than stuck at uni. I like how free he was, although I also knew he felt uncomfortable for chased by uni (because they still think he escape from his…Continue
Actually it's an old case that happened to me... So it was like this:
after National Writing Month ends at 2013, I was befriend with some girl whom I met at same forum. At first I don't find her odd, despite she always reply my message with jumbled grammar (in Indonesian, of course). we shared our dd and characters, but she don't know whether I had MD.
around 2 weeks later, she told me she want to make a light series about male vocal octet in Switzerland who had different…Continue
Long time not visiting this forum :(
I actually want to tell my experience after I choose to scrapped my novel project. Yeah, I chose it because lack of data and seems people whom I want to interview about histories won't answer. But that's okay actually. Because I already determined the ending of my novel, Dark Tears in Red Music.
Basically there are several endings in different characters. Not really a happy one, but not sad too. Everything is really balance. Well at…Continue
Whoa, how long I've been not posting in here :O
Honestly, now I could reduce my DD since I met this website and share everything. With help of doing task from college, too. Still doing DD though, but not often like many years ago. Too bad I also planning to scrapped my novel project since relatives of Alexandrov Ensemble not really amused with my idea. oddly they really appreciate my drawings about Alexandrov Ensemble.
So to entertain myself, I made another story but still in…Continue
Added by Fitri Kamelia on September 15, 2015 at 12:00am — No Comments
Pretty accurate if I say that this is the only family that I made into characters. Plus they don't change its appearance and personalities. Besides I need their perspective to tell their stories for my project novel, but because all of the member already passed away, so all I can do is only looked at the grandson's memoir about them. And some biographies or documentary movies about them. The memoirs are enough to add some stories how this family lived in such a cold place only with their…Continue
Added by Fitri Kamelia on April 23, 2015 at 9:32am — No Comments
Just want to sharing my feelings...
Sometimes I felt so jealous to others. They seems have brighter future than me, although I can't guess too much since it's not happening yet.
The feeling comes bigger after learning at college for a year. I start to lose my confidence to become a translator in government. I changed my aspire to be furniture entrepreneur like father, but to do that... I must at least learn it at Jepara (it's a special city that focus on making and…Continue
Finally after long college time, I have a time too for writing this.
So yeah, I decided to change my drawing style. Although I may still use my realistic drawing... The reason are: (1) sometimes I have mood to draw but too lazy for doing some face details and (2) many people - okay I mean my big family - start to complain about my drawing style. In my religion, people who make something exact like human will burn in hell because they had challenge God's creation. My family are rather…Continue
So around two weeks ago, just after I finished my last character Wilhelm Alkern... I move out from my old house. Shortly,the old one was too big for my mom and I. So we packed all things and around 9th February, all of them (include us) moved in new house. Still in same town, and distance between new house to uni are still tolerable. We only move from urban to rural place.
I felt comfortable in new place, too. I have my own room (before this, my room has a door that connected to…Continue
After nearly a year (from August 2014-February 2015), my blank book finally full with my drawings - only one blank paper which I planned to draw commission for Alexandrov Ensemble, the music group that trigger my DD since high school. That one wasn't really in hurry actually. But since a week later my family had to move out to another house (still in same city, though), so I think I must spend my last days for DDing and drawing as much as I can.... until this precious book…Continue
Sorry, I just want to express my feeling that had been held since 2 month ago, but oddly it became my motivation later...
I don't understand why I rarely have any compliment about my drawings and arts. Whenever I've finished draw someone (I draw random people when I bored at class) and show it to him/her that nearly 86% same as their face, they just said "No I'm ugly at that drawing. Try again".
Well at first I think it was a critic. So I learned and learned to draw human,…
It's kinda strange since I organize my mind (which is Realistic Figures and Stick Figures, which is a heaven genre with angels and hell genre with satans) after I thought my head kinda messy, I started to have another name in each world.
In Realistic World which many of characters were a human/mythology creature lives, I was called by them "Alisa Alvi". It's like I rule them in casual; not dictator nor too liberal. They lived as usual, but everytime something bad happens, the…Continue
So I make a novel when there's Nanowrimo contest last year, and my genre is Historial Fiction. now I've been 70% in my novel progress about Red Army Choir's activity in Stalin era (include how the Soviet live their life in 1930s), and the last thing I must continue only after 1941 till 1946 (that means I write about how they went into WW2). It's kinda stuck actually, since their route to Berlin was same as Soviets but they're not fought straightly after 1941, but around 1942-1943, then went…Continue
I just realised that I have MD last night when I googled about split personality (ya know, wikipedia sometimes gave another suggestions). the symptoms like "daydream more than thinking about reality, making characters in mind and play it like a movie in my head etc" ALL TRUE!!
1. I daydreamed all the time, and usually contains Soviets (because I like Red Army and their music since I entering junior high school). sometimes I laugh and saying some Russian words when I think about them…Continue
Added by Fitri Kamelia on October 12, 2013 at 11:00pm — No Comments