So I feel like I need to just rant a bit tonight.......

For months now, I've been feeling like I can't quite get a handle on my actual real life, and I can't figure out why. For once, it's not because of DD.

I haven't actually been able to really immerse myself in DD for.... months and months really. I made myself quit because it was a bad time in my life and I needed some space to sort things out. Some parts of my life have become unexpectedly great --…

Coil- The Dreamer is Still Asleep:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ZDnSvmv9J0

If this song does not speak to you, then no song written about trying to keep from daydreaming your life away ever will.

You know the artist who made this (Coil) has got to be a daydreamer himself. How else could one make such a resonant song about this subject? He gets it. :)

The lyrics also hit…

I am new here.  I just read the article by Amanda Schupak on Yahoo and was shocked to learn that what I have experienced as my normal life these past 44 years was shared by others.  I have always been ashamed by it.  What I read in the article and have read so far on the blogs is so amazing.  I share so many of these experiences.   So many things seem to make sense.  The vivid nighttime dreams, which I have always remembered so easily (and friends growing up always thought I "made up"), the…