Hi my name is Brandon and i am 18. I have had MD since before i can remember but, in 2nd grade i know i had it because my teachers called home and asked about my strange behavioral in class. I fail the 2ND grade because i was not able to concentrate. From that day foreword i have tried to suppressed it and stop daydreaming but, i failed there was no stopping it. after a few years I was able to suppressed it sometimes but, not for too long. after i stared high school i had almost full control… Continue
Added by Divinity on November 3, 2010 at 7:31pm —
I’m trying to remember if there was ever a moment in my life where I wasn’t completely paralyzed by the fear that my whole world was about to come crashing down on me. It’s so bad. I start the day by fearing all I have to do & knowing I’ll never catch up. I fear the phone. I check my email, afraid of what may be inside. I’m afraid that someone’s going to email me angry, judging me for my attitude, telling me they won’t help me. I fear the phone because I know it’s bill… Continue
Added by Cordellia Amethyste Rose on November 3, 2010 at 5:13pm —
I am struggling with a problem lately. In the past, I have always daydreamed about people that weren't real. Actors, or characters I make up in my head. But in the last year, I have daydreamed about a man I know. I am very attracted to him, but until recently, it was not a problem. Then over the last couple of months I have been seeing this man more in social situations. Talking to him (always with others in a group). It made me like him even more. ( But I am in a relationship with someone else… Continue
Added by Julie Martin on October 30, 2010 at 7:38pm —
Hiya, My name is Sarai I am 16 and I've had MD since I was 3 years old (my
parents actually have video of me doing it). I also had lucid dreaming since age
5, have it every night about 7-10 times a night.
I daydream on the bus, when I wake up, when I brush my teeth, in the shower,
car, church, watching tv, during the day about 3 hours, when I go to sleep, so
basically the whole day.…
Added by BrideOfAsakura on October 29, 2010 at 1:51pm —
hi i am new here. i actually first found out about this disorder yesterday from a Google search. well here is a bit about me. ever since i was little i was an avid daydreamer. when i was little though i had toys and all that dreaming was quite normal for someone my age. also from a young age i was quite a loner and was happy about that. i loved nature so i would play by my self in the trees behind the school playground or i would sit under a tree to think up some adventure story. but then i… Continue
Added by Sophia Miller on October 27, 2010 at 4:11pm —
I've been grouchy all week, and I haven't wanted to talk about it. Here's the thing: I went to a sweat lodge for the first time last weekend. I thought it would be relaxing, but it was actually very intense. I enjoyed it at the time, but I realized afterward that my lust for the intense fantasies was triggered. My MD has always been very physical. I don't just pace; I run back and forth and jump in the air, often bouncing off of a wall when I do it. So I think the physical intensity… Continue
Added by Nomad on October 2, 2010 at 6:50pm —
Im new here, as of today. I am also a member of the Yahoo! MD group, but have recently become quite frustrated with it. It annoys me that whilst everyone on the group is happy to talk openly about their MD experience, nobody wants to discuss making the "disorder" more public. I honestly believe that its the only way us lot can be helped, for MD to be thrust into the view of the medical profession. I guess I just personally feel at a dead end. There is no escape from my MD addiction and it… Continue
Added by Rosalyn on October 1, 2010 at 2:32pm —
I know you love your profession. At least I hope you do. I hope you got into this field with a desire to really help people & not just for the money and prestige. I'm saying this because at the age of 30, I find myself disheartened. I've lost faith in you.
I know you're human. That seems to be the number one response. Of course you're human, so let's get that out of the way. I know you're human, and you know I'm human. Good, now that that's… Continue
Added by Cordellia Amethyste Rose on September 26, 2010 at 5:30pm —
I have absolutely had it with old friends who look at my life for 2 mins & get all sad. When I see you all & how you've gotten what you want, I feel nothing but joy for you. Do you really all think you have the lives I want? I don't. There's not one of you I would trade places with. I congratulate you because I'm happy for you. To get pity in return is nothing but disrespectful. You're not paying attention. Shame on you for not congratulating me on MY life.
Added by Cordellia Amethyste Rose on September 21, 2010 at 11:36pm —
It seems like everyone else here knows when it started. I have no recollection of a time before this or when the first time would have been.
Unlike many of the other stories I've read, I am not a part of this elaborate, persistant, addictive daydream world. I don't exist in this world in any remote way. It's just a place I create and watch voyeristically with intermittent severity.
This place isn't better than the one I live in. The people who… Continue
Added by Brooklyn Thorpe on September 15, 2010 at 3:00am —
I'm Michael Gibson (some of my friends call me "Sparky), I live in Albany Oregon and am 53 yrs old. I've had strong sensory independant imagitive abilities sense childhood, but did not find my daydreams becoming addictive until the late '80's. I've always known that I could not be the only one, but did not find this site until today and I just have to say ... Thank god!
Thank all of you for just being you .. and thanks especially to Cordellia for starting this group. (Chalk one up for… Continue
Added by Michael Gibson on September 12, 2010 at 6:06pm —
Went for a long walk around the water front today. Just over 3 miles. I used to do this frequently, but walking always makes me daydream. There's nothing to do but think. I'm too physically awkward to do other exercises. Walking is the only thing that I can do without falling down........and that's just barely. Lol. It's sad & funny but very true. Anyway, doing nothing but lying around & daydreaming, I gained a ton of weight. I must try and get some of it off. I eased myself into it,… Continue
Added by Cordellia Amethyste Rose on September 10, 2010 at 7:05pm —
Alright. 19 year old guy, full-blown dreamer since I was about 13, earliest I can trace the habit back to is 5. Maybe I've been like this all my life, wouldn't know as my memory is worthless (seems I'm not alone in that).
I suppose it wouldn't hurt to keep a blog of my progress and thoughts. I have already started taking notes so making this for all of you see might turn out beneficial for others as well. Though, knowing my history of consistency, I don't know if I am able to keep up… Continue
Added by Penguin on August 24, 2010 at 11:30am —
So lately I've been reading a while lot more. Both books and fanfiction, but the one thing that annoys me the most is that literally after every sentence I have to stop for a few minutes and daydream. If I try to stop myself from daydreaming while reading I seriously become so exhausted!
And it kind of sucks I admit because before I could easily breeze through reading something but now, it takes hours and hours. *sigh*
I'm not gonna lie though, but it gives me a lot of… Continue
Added by Patra Sealey on August 21, 2010 at 6:30pm —
Yesterday, I told my mom about this forum. I said "You remember when I used to run around in circles to music when I was a kid?" and she said "You still do that?" I can see how my behavior sounds strange for a 43-year-old. I said "not for three months." The truth is it's been more like 2.5 months, but I thought three sounded better. I don't feel embarrassed about my MD when I talk to new people, but talking to my mom was tough. She got serious and quiet for half a second, which she never… Continue
Added by Nomad on August 15, 2010 at 6:00am —
This goes along with sensory sensitivity, but out of curiosity, how many of you are picky eaters? To what degree?
For me, it's pretty extreme. There's a very limited list of things I'll eat. If anything has anything I don't like in it, that food is completely off limits. I have to know what's in anything before I'll even try it. Most things I won't try. It's to varying degrees. If I even smell or taste butter, I will absolutely get sick to my stomach. I'm not allergic. I just… Continue
Added by Cordellia Amethyste Rose on August 11, 2010 at 5:00pm —
Exam tomorrow. Prof assigned 178 extra credit problems. Has taken so long to get through less than half of them. Focusing & working in 20 second spurts makes Continue
it so hard to get things done. Been at
this for like 3 days. At this point my
head feels strange & I still have 2 hard sections to get through, but I
just can’t make myself do it. It’s not
even that they’re hard. They just
require a lot of work & my body just aches & wants…
Added by Cordellia Amethyste Rose on August 1, 2010 at 3:32pm —
OK. I had to get this out somewhere and well, this is the only place to get it out. I've been daydreaming hardcore since my boyfriend left to go out. Usually I do it like in between watching TV, going online, etc. Today I am in DEEP. I haven't stopped to do anything. I don't even know why I left I had to get this in words but I did. I never really considered this an addiction. When I found discussion boards online and then found this website, it was the first time I ever thought about it in… Continue
Added by Lily on July 22, 2010 at 7:35pm —
Wow...I just had silence in my head for the first time..
Even if it was just for five seconds it was pretty cool :)
Added by Patra Sealey on July 15, 2010 at 11:03am —
Some of you mentioned ADHD or SPD in order to explain their Daydreaming addiction.
After further research, I think mine is deeply conected to Histrionic Personality Disorder although it would desserve the diagnose of a specialist.
I did not think about it because many descriptions point to the fact that this disorder occurs mainly within the female personality, but apparently a few males also have the disorder with synthoms that lightly differs.
My daydreams are mainly… Continue
Added by quentin on July 1, 2010 at 7:16am —