Where wild minds come to rest
Hi all... I have started to write my MD story into a novel, based on the suggestion of one of our WMN friends. The first chapter is up here.
Would like to hear from y'all on it.
The earliest signs of mdd I remember was in my earliest memories. For quite a while, I had believed that I just had imaginary friends, who'd I play with for hours at a time. But now, I believe I recognize signs it wasn't simply an imaginary friend.
I was extremely close to my friend, and insisted it was real, because it felt like it did. I was so determined that I was tested for schizophrenia. However, I knew it wasn't real. I'd spend time confused why something I knew wasn't real…Continue
I hate celebrating holidays with people. I mostly hate celebrating it with my family, but the anxiety comes with friends too. I think I might try to survive tomorrow by pretending I'm someone else. I'm hoping wearing a mask over my mind might help. Fingers crossed.
I wander up the village’s hill,
Autumn day is falling.
A rising breeze, i feel it’s chill,
Silent nightfall’s calling.
When shadows through the forest creep,
Night Owl’s crying lonely.
I watch the trees for long asleep,
Thoughts are talking only.
As vision’s flying far away,
Pictures seem so close,
Of worlds I wish to see one day.
Where my wind blows, who knows?…Continue
As some of you could clearly tell by my ramblings in chat these last two weeks, I've been having an increasingly hard time in keeping my sanity in check. Numerous aspects that had persisted for eras are coming into harder and harder friction against reality, whether I like it or not. Streams of thought that I had somewhat managed to chain into the back of my head for years are gaining unprecedented power.
My mind is fragmented, falling to pieces, and each of those pieces is fighting…Continue
Hi guys, these days it's been hard. I don't know, I've been daydreaming a lot instead of studying, I've been wasting a lot of time. I resist it but I get really tired and sleep in the afternoon only to waste time on the internet in the evening, I go to bed late, I planned to watch 2 movies every weekend but that's not happening, somehow. My entire method of scheduling my day has fallen apart. I get really cranky and, just when I'm about to lash out or am in the process of doing so, an inner…Continue
have not generated any new input for a long time but I can to realize that my condition could have been a form of self-medication to help me deal with my sleep apea. In my case, I suffered from depression beginning from the third grades, that is also when I can remember the day dreaming. In my case day dreaming was about creating characters, stories and above all relationships that made me happy. Happy enough to create serration, I am sure this was a method of self coping that my body…Continue