I haven't been on here in a long time and I feel like things have kind of gotten worse for me

When I don't daydream or when I think about too many 'real life' things, I get anxious and irritable. I feel disconnected from myself/the world. I don't feel like any of this is actually happening and I don't know if I believe that I exist/the world exists

I always feel disconnected/depersonalized but if I don't daydream, it's so much worse. Daydreams are simultaneously the only good…

[Hey.  New here.  Below, is a vent.  Thanks for reading my vent.]



I want to stop living in my head, I told my friend, even if that means having to cut out music, television, and whatever else triggers these fictional worlds.  My friend encouraged me.  



With things inside my head less interesting, I'd be forced to make my real-life more interesting, I reasoned.  I decided to try getting involved in activities that my fictional characters became involved in.  One…

Last night, i dreamt of wildminds. In my dreams, wm was a place, based in cordellia's house (which was very small in my dream) i stayed a few nights, grendel and mia were mild mannered jaguars. Another member came by, saw me, and told me that, despite my age, she would treat me the same as if i were older than her. I am only 15.

I am not very active here. My bad! Like most dreamers, i am happy with a small circle of friends, and see no need to return to the horde after i can contact them elsewhere. I then develop a strong bond with said people on facebook, skype, etc., wather than here. I will not mention the member's names unless they so choose to tak  credit via a comment, but my inner circle of friends all know the names and details. I, along with my friends, have had a horrible past couple of weeks. Sexual…

I haven't posted anything for a while, today I tried to post a reply and it says my message will have to be approved. Does inactivity put you on probation?

Im 15 and I've had maladaptive daydreaming for as long as I can remember. I was a happy child and it never bothered me how much I daydreamed. Throughout middle school it was my way of coping if something went wrong. It was how I dealt with boredom and through it I could think out new situations to deal with my current problems. Recently (5-6 months) I've been having symptoms of depression and my maladaptive daydreaming became less and less and now its just gone. I am so lost. My head feels…

Remember the surgery I had almost a year ago and almost died from complications of?  I'm having it again on Wednesday.

I'm sure those complications are rare.  I hope it goes well.

Anyway, I'll be away from the site for a couple of days.  If anyone needs anything, message me, and I'll respond when I get back.

I'm not entirely sure if I'm the only one, but does having MMD make you indecisive about certain things in your life?

Recently, I've been having second thoughts about what I want to do with my life. I am going to be starting my Sophomore year in college in a week, and I' am happy about my current majors, but I'm entirely confused on what direction to take while studying my majors (I'm a double major).

For as long as I could remember I've had this one daydream, that has…

In 2009, before I even started this site, I agreed to live completely openly about my Maladaptive Daydreaming.  It was scary at first, but it's actually been very cathartic.  I've told friends, doctors, professors, and anyone else who would listen.  Almost everyone was completely fine with it.  They didn't all understand, but most of them were open and at least tried.  Some could relate immediately.

Recently one of my old classmates started a Facebook group just for people who…

In the past couple of weeks I have been seeing a doctor for major depression, anxiety - especially social anxiety disorder. I also fit the profile of someone with an avoidant personality. When i was discussing my symptoms to the doctor I described my excessive compulsion to fantasize, how i pace, and how i can't focus sometimes because my urge to daydream is so powerful. My doctor didn't seem as interested in Maladaptive Daydreaming but assumed it was an aspect of being socially avoidant. I…

A day or two ago, I made a blog post about my mom's illness and how we didn't think she'd make it. Here's the update.

Yesterday, they decided to take her off life support at 4pm. I went up to the hospital before they took her off life support and hung with family and went in to see her one last time. They took her off life support at 4pm, and she died at around 10pm. 

It's now official that I'm staying with my mom's best friend, Brooklyne, and her  family. My oldest brother,…