I'm really dumb and stupid. Im so clumsy. And as I daydream, I try to be an extrovert and centre of attention in reality but unfortunately end up appearing even more dumb. Ive been called so by my teachers in primary school and by others who are not even superior to me like my teachers are. Since ive grown now, nobody tells this to me in my face. But im sure thats what they'll be thinking.......she's so stupid. The unfortunate part is.......im soon going to complete my mbbs in a year. So im… Continue

 ..........there is a time when it is a curse. no matter when or how it is used, you steal time from reality and loved ones. 

        I started  dd   as  a  young kid. I was influenced by movies and upbringing.  I would mimic anything or anyone in  my mind.  It was fun. I thought I was  developing my imagination.

        as a teen, while being grounded, I played a  favorite record over and over again  while slipping into  dd   to be free.

the record was…

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Hi there,

I am trying to quit MD. Go all the way this time. On my own 5 days in, and I am not doing it right. 

I know that I have been skirting around any real deprivation. I have been going soft on myself, by allowing myself to watch DD-related stuff on Youtube. This is, as you might imagine, a waste of time. When I waste time like this, I know that I am wasting away. I can't look at myself in the mirror for more than 5 seconds without reeling…

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I have been taking apart my daydreams by analyzing all my characters and how they make me feel.  I’ve found that it is connected to things that happen to me in the past. There are emotional things I can’t deal with, like love, jealousy and intimidation, to name a few. When I daydream I am covering up some kind of emotion. To find the underlying causes for my DD I started writing in my journal. When I try to DD now, I experience a complete block. I don’t know whether it’s temporary or whether…

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Note: Long-winded post ahead. Peruse at your own risk. :P 

So I have to get this out. 

I am on Day 4 of trying to quit DD. Any setbacks in that plan then? Why yes. Yes there are. It’s a bad time to quit MD for me, because I want so badly to be absorbed in the political issues taking place across an ocean from me. I am pretty sure that Scotland is about to get a second chance at gaining its independence from the UK. 

I am a half-jewish American…

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anyone ever have a character in your DD that you didn't create? that you don't know from some movie, book or life? a mystery person. I have, from the beginning. I think if I could just figure out where this person came from, I might get to the bottom of why I DD. I can't remember the first time he appeared in a DD. If I could, I think it could answer some questions. I thought about hypnosis but I am afraid of that. How to make myself remember.

every once and a while i come back and think about posting here so i was reading my old posts and was kind of surprised at how different i am now

im happier than ever i guess, which is weird because im kind of at a terrible inescapable place in my life and im more mentally ill than ever, but w/e. i was reading about how i hated my mental illnesses and i just.... dont feel that way at all anymore??? ive sort of become part of a community for psychotic ppl + schizophrenia spectrum ppl…

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Hello everyone!

I've been around this website for quite a while now, I don't post very often but I often read what you guys post!

I've already shared this questionnaire a couple of months ago in order to gather your experiences as Maladaptive Daydreamers and I'm glad to say that we received way more answers than we expected. 

We expected around 200 anwers and we have received more than 370. I'd like to thank all of you for participating and sharing the questionnaire. Now…

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(I've been on this site since 2012 and this is my first blog post...shame, shame *rings bell*)

My daydreams have followed the same characters since 2005...even before my daydreaming evolved into its more intense MD form that it is now. My DDs revolve around one tv show, one that thankfully is quite successful and is still running after 10 years (the newest installment starts next year!).

Like a lot of others I've seen on the forum, I like my DDs to be as…

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Reading blogs on here I noticed that there are people whom daydreams include literally fictional characters like made up creatures something like aliens and cartoon characters and scenarios and stories that would never ever happen on earth
And other people whom daydreams include events that are not impossible to happen and with normal people
Which of these are you?
Do you think it's a difference?
Do you think someone can have both kinds of daydreams ?

this is the 4th account i made on this site, i always stop logging in for a while then come back and forget my password.

i haven't been on here in like months, so the first thing i did when i opened this site was to read my old blog posts and after i read them i felt so proud.

 i still do daydream, like, i always make up scenarios for events i have coming, and i daydream before falling asleep and i'm okay with that because a year ago it was so much worse, i used to spend my…

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So I am in my early 30s. I am currently attending college online and trying desperately to turn my writing into a small bit of income. Unfortunately my financial aid has been the only aid I have in paying for my computer, internet access and all the other needed stuff to keep attending class. I can't pay any of that without the financial aid.  The MD, compiled with the fact I have no medical and see my doc through the aid of a local non profit group means I get only basic care . I get the…

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It is so difficult to acknowledge how bad my maladaptive daydreaming is that I have had multiple fantasies where I got to a medical office, sit on a couch and talk about it. My fantasies are actively taking themselves to the doctor. And yet I can't get there.



Sometimes I feel like I fight my fantasies for control. It becomes almost related to self-esteem in a way... The person I enact in my fantasies is so valuable to the characters around her/me, but I am not valuable to the…

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I'm taking Rexetin and Frontin for depression now. My sleep-pattern got better, and I feel better, but I'm not sure if it's because of the pills or because it's the summer and now my life is not as stressfull. I also moved out, so at least I got away from my parents, which is brilliant, even if I have to live with 8 other girls in a dormitory full of mold and trash. I got a summer job, and it's okay, I wish I could get enough money so I don't have to move back home...

"That Nagging Feeling.."



Have you ever had that, that nagging feeling? And the memories that came flashing back with it? If yes, you can probably relate with me. But if not, maybe someday you'll be able to understand what I'm saying.



It started, err, I really can't remember when it all started..hehe..Hmm.. All I know is that I have felt that throughout my entire life. Since I was a kid, I felt alone. And lonely. The feeling of being both empty and full has always bothered… Continue

 I seem to be sleepy all the time. I just want to lay down. It is the only time my brain shuts up. Sleep. A rest from the mental clutter I’ve had lately. Like an introvert in a crowd of talking people. My mind gets so noisy I just want to scream “shut up!” How to find a quiet place.