I was at the local post office. I was mailing my rent and a letter to my pen pal. Well, it was going great but during the whole transaction I was having inner conversation on what to do afterwards. Doing this and that, "oh that's a great idea." Then it came to finish the transaction at the counter I meant to say, "have a good day." Instead I blurted out, "that's a great idea". oh NOOOOOOOO. Did I just let out an inner conversation?!!! OH CRAP. I was so embarrassed. The lady looked surprised…

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I believe that in my case, the only upside to maladaptive daydreaming is the heightened creativity. I use this creativity to write poetry. I spend the last few days working on a particular poem about maladaptive daydreaming. I figure that it does no good rotting away in my drawer so I might as well share it with all of you.

DAYDREAMERS

(completed 6/27/17 at 1:25 PM)

I am near,

But I am far,

I am lost,

I am broken,

I am…

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Hi Everyone,

               I've been suffering from MDD since 2011. 99% of the time it's about me romancing with my girlfriend (non-existing) in the dream . It started off slowly where I would daydream only before sleeping and after waking up. But since 2014 it spread like wildfire. If I'm left alone now, I can't finish any task in time as I'll end up daydreaming.  It feels very difficult to get my mind out of it. I dream about me proposing to her, giving her tight hugs, flirting…

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I have always been stuck in my head, imagining new scenes, dreaming about a different scenario when things go wrong. I'm also a writer and an amateur painter, all thanks to MDD. But, now that that I have found such a precious place where people of my own species, so to speak, are many, I would be really happy to talk to you in social media and feel as though I'm not alone. So, if anyone feels like talking or telling me about their daydreaming adventures and vice versa. I will be very happy to… Continue

I just need to clear my mind and confess my feelings from today.

I don't have anyone else to tell and I am scared to incase they take my daydreams away from me with making me feel ashamed or embarrassed.

I feel like I am losing it slowly, I feel I am obsessed. I know why I daydream I want my life to be more fulfilling than working long hours and then coming home to sit on my phone and daydream my evenings away.

I dream about falling in love and someone falling in love…

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I truly thought I was the only one suffering from this . Heck I did not even know what it was till one day I looked up my symptoms and found MD.  WOW that was me to the letter. I have always had a big imagination. I was the only girl in a family of boys. My Dad was abusive and I truly think that my MD was spawned by my childhood. I did it to escape the pain and loneliness.  I would lock myself in my bedroom and not come out. I did not have the problem at school. Now as an adult. I am still…

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Today I wrote a letter to myself into my MD journal. Keeping this journal has helped me more than I can express in words. So I have decided to share this entry with you, hoping that it can inspire some of you to start a journal and face the demons you are struggling with as well...

'Hello, version of me reading this journal entry,

I just wanted to say thank you for writing in this book! Honestly just doing this every day is helping you so much! You know it, you…

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Hello to everyone who spent time to read this post.

Well, these days I found myself not wanting to live anymore. It isn't that my life is really bad, in fact, it's a pretty normal life. I'm preparing for college, my exams are over and the results won't be that bad- maybe good. My family is good and well, I'm not that lonely. I have friends I can share my situation without worrying that they'll turn their backs on me.

But whenever I'm alone and espacially whenever I'm thinking…

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I'm been a bit panicky. Well, it happens. I have been dozing off a bit. I call daydreaming out of nowhere, "dozing off". All I have been doing is going in and out the hospital since my mom is in there. When I drive, it is annoying tho.

Either way, I am writing my next book as I can. It has been five months now. I've never taken that long to write a book. It usually takes about three months. I'm thinking of taking an extra month of writing it.

Other than that, I'm okay. I'm…

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Just found out my mom has cancer. Big shock. Don't feel like doing anything. If anything, I actually thought that I would die before my parents. I would actually prefer that.

I thought about my reaction from hearing the news. On the inside, I was feeling very torn. The only expression I could give out was a subtle frown. I was never really good at showing my emotions on my own. When I am daydreaming, I would go all out with it. I would speak out my daydreams, walk in circles, and show…

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