Decided to make a blog post for the hell of it :3

First off, I tend to sometimes take names from real tv shows because I can't think up anything myself. The daydream takes place in the fictional town of Torchwood, Arizona where I work for a large technology company that develops quite mysterious technologies. Also on the outskirts of the town is an Air Force base that (like Area 51 I guess) collects alien technology and tries to use them to develop new weapons. The entire…

There's a nice little job lined up for me at my Dad's company.

It's by no means dead-end. I could end up physically crafting the hulls of space ships

The attractive-sounding secretary (Hiring person... HR girl, whatever) sent another email.

"You haven't sent us your application yet. If you don't want the Job be sure to tell me now"…

I've had MD since I can remember and never saw it as a torment, just something that made me different. Of course for many of those years I believed I had ADHD. . . I only started seeing (and accepting) the negative effects MD has in my life after seeing forums and learning what MD was (and that I had it).

It always came to be as a sort of  'blessing' to have the capability to imagine such vivid things. It's so much fun! I'm never bored and - wow - I can see so much! I love to…

To leave the legacy... What will remain, when we're gone? Some "chosen" ones, like Jim Morrisson or Kurt Cobain still continue to influence the lives of others, but what would happen, if they decided not to try but to kept their music to themselves? And what about me? If I'm not so talented, is this the excuse?

Five years ago I learnt to make pivot tables. I came to the guys, who are preparing reports on daily basis and asked to show me, how to make it. The guy, who showed…

  Sleep used to come natural to me, as natural as breathing came. Something to let my mind rest. But now it seems everything but normal. I'm not sure anymore if maladaptive daydreaming is a good thing or bad anymore, since it keeping me from sleeping, and from really waking up?  

     I mean the first thing i think of when i wake up, isn't what i'm doing today, or what i have planned or my…

http://soundcloud.com/deloreanjones/youonlyliveonce

my ego ebbs and flows,

leaps and rebounds

crashes and resurfaces.

It's really fun to forget about how you (I) can't do it as well as others and just sing for the joy of it. I really really like this song, and in singing it you'll get close to it in a way you can't by just listening. You steal more of it into your soul, I…

been on 40mgs of fluoxetine for a while now and i can honestly say it definitely helps me to control my md.

 I still do it dont get me wrong but its much much less now than before.

 i guess this is because the fluoxetine ie prozac stops you from being able to concentrate for too long and it peps you up so you dont need as much daydream-time.

citalopram on the other hand was pure evil stuff and it got me lost in my…

I know it is personal but if you are comfortable with it, i would like to hear what other people dream about. What kind of world it is, characters, unusual details. I'm just interested to hear other peoples stories!

Thanks

p.s. None can be as weird as mine!

I decided I like putting numbers in the front of titles. It satiates my usually very ornery and conflicting senses of OCD and HDAD. So yes, I stole it from Julia La Vey. She seems like a classy broad so I don't think she'd mind.

I write a lot, yet I want all of it to be organized and have meaning. I don't want to go up my own ass in meaning. Take myself too seriously. I don't take anything seriously.

Unless I'm trapped.

Have you ever been…

hello everyone

i have no idea how i found this place but im thankful that i have, everything i read here i can relate to on so many levels, something that ive never had before. im not entirely sure what i want to write so ive decided to just let the words flow and let the dream decide where i will go.  Im not sure anyone will read this, or even want to, but im not sure if that matters really. instead im just going to do it becuase.

I am always in a dream that…

For a couple months in between late December and Febuary, i sucessfully stopped daydreaming. It was amazing - i was becoming passionate about my writing and growing monumentally as a person. In a matter of weeks, I could feel the pull of inspiration and, for once in three years, I actually LISTENED to music, instead of merely pacing and dreaming. Finally, my life was enriched.

When I look back at that time, I remember a feeling of vicious hope and liberation. In short, I was…

Instead of posting the next few chapters like I was doing I decided to just finish the whole thing and give everyone the download link when I finished it! :)

http://www.megaupload.com/?d=WHRRQ8QH

There you guys go! :D

What if I fall in love with that man?

Love is a triumph of imagination over rationality. You lose control. You act irrationally. You do stupid things. You compromise, when you don't need to. You don't compromise, when you have to. You might run an emotional roller-coaster a.k.a. "I hate myself for loving you" or even "I love to hate you". You might get miserable "He's a drug addict, beats me, steals…

Augmented Reality is a real nifty thing for the daydream-inclined. Instead of creating a completely separate and detached world, you try to fill in the boring parts of the one you're in. Synesthesia is an effective and sometimes involuntary method of doing this ~ imagining shapes, lights and synchronized movements to music. Or, making up songs out of the normal and very Monday events happening around you.

I like to think of it like layers in Photoshop, you can play with masks…

I started writing a linear story, and I'm on page 11.

That is by far, the most I've ever spent on one single idea. When I gave myself the limitation of having to think in a linear fashion, my brain found amusing ways to get around it. Switching to other characters, dimensions, to myself. Eventually I will turn my MD into productive thought. I guess you can technically say I will stop having "maladaptive" day dreaming but.

I'm still going to be miles away in situations.…

Lately I’ve been daydreaming about my imaginary couple confessing their love for the first time (and for what is actually the millionth time). Yesterday, I suddenly felt compelled to find well-written love letters online, address them to my characters, and print them out in handwriting font. Then I sealed them in envelopes and made up their addresses. I pretend that my characters actually wrote these letters to each other, and I feel stupidly excited. Am I getting weirder or what? And what a…

Some time ago there was a Danish movie Adam's apples. It was about a priest, who was very happy and despite all bad things surrounding him, kept optimistic. He was radiating health, telling, how good his son was in soccer and at school and from time to time became a bit sentimental and sad, remembering his dead wifte (who had died accidentally because of choking). Then one of the characters discovers that the priest is terminally ill, his son is mentally and…