Where wild minds come to rest
It's funny. I spent many years of my life being the strong silent type. It never occurred to me what a significant degree of effect it had on everyone to extent they either got real angry, disturbed, snobbish or mean. They used to gossip all the time behind my back, even compare me to people who are already 'talkative' and 'socially acceptable.' So cruised through life with this deep chip on my shoulder. Whether read a book, did a crossword or went to work, I would be haunted with…Continue
I do feel as if maladaptive daydreaming screwed me over like a boyfriend. It told me sweet little lies, it played games with my heart and it swept me away from opportunities. In the end, it made me look bad in front of people. MDD filled me with warm, affectionate feelings and wonderful promises in some moments. However, at other times, it was also very abusive in a real scary way, and in the end, I fell on my face all sore, bruised and stunned. It distracted my attention away from other…Continue
Added by Jessica Ballantyne on May 30, 2017 at 6:53pm — No Comments
I've been extremely quiet since I was 12, exactly the same age that I started MDD. I've been nearly untalkative since I was a teenager, and now that I am waking up, being too quiet actually bothers me a lot. I am afraid many people will discover it and get very turned off in a upset or burned up way. Before that, when I was littler, I was a very chirpy kid. I would blare my thoughts out at people openly, even though I was still socially inept. I even remember describing my…Continue
Added by Jessica Ballantyne on May 29, 2017 at 6:58pm — No Comments
I notice that because you don't see what you want early enough or at all anytime soon, due to nature's unexplained realities, this will cause you to MDD. People who are usually successful don't do this, because they have what they need—especially when it's no biggie to them. Also, they know better as to how things are accomplished. Kind like the movie stars, musicians and celebrity socialites out there.
For instance, I had no idea that I had Autism until I was 30. Before…
At the moment I feel totally lost, daydreaming seems to be taking over my life. Normally I feel like I have more control over it. I feel like I can set the boundaries.
I would limit myself to DD before going to sleep and could easily cope with being at work and interacting with people. The last month or so I've noticed a change where I feel distant from everyone.…Continue
I haven't gotten much sleep lately. I took a four hour nap today, and now my dazed state is making me daydream more. At least, that's what I think. I am lying in the hospital room with my mother with limited battery (due to breaking my charger, oops), and this neglection to doing anything is making me daydream. I have been avoiding it by using videos and anime. Daydreaming takes up so much of my time, that I had to avoid it somehow.
Well, that's all I have for now.
Everybody I've met did not MDD...in fact, they all found me nuts. Friends I have right now don't even know I do it. I'm still too scared to tell my girlfriend to this very day. In fact, she wonders if I am even listening to her, and so do others.Continue
Added by Jessica Ballantyne on May 26, 2017 at 4:42pm — No Comments
How many people got deceived by their day dreams?
Maybe you lived in your own world.....Maybe you believed things would come soon...such as boy/girlfriends, job advancements, a nice apartment, social acceptance, an exciting journey.
I used to think I can chum around people and get on with them great....when in really, many in real life didn't like me at all and found me 'odd or unsettling.'
I've had so many imaginary romantic relationships. In real life, I've…Continue
I was surfing online and I found this awesome website about MD. It has some interesting preservatives. I recommend you check it out here! Anyways, dream on my friends!
Added by Fallen Messenger on May 25, 2017 at 6:47am — No Comments
I've had it bad most of my life. Not only did I Daydream excessively, but I also had Autism, so I couldn't connect at all.
So, I seldom every made any friends. Everybody I couldn't connect with, they'd usually found me rude, bitchy, weird and stupid. My parents have only liked two of my best friends, and they both remain my BFF. Other friends, I have hooked up with were weirdos. To this very day, I am still trying to find my crowd.
I'm almost finished writing a poetry book and I felt like I should share just a few poems that relate to MD.
10/14/16 2:29 pm
I'm slowly drifting to the end of the earth.
I'm slowing become someone else.
Losing my mind.
I had fulfilling memories of grade school and college, entering my adult years, it just wasn't the same. Because I did MDD for years, it set me apart from most people, because most of them noticed the 'far off look' in my eyes, or caught me laugh at nothing, or they'd hear me say something, but not directly to them, so they'd feel very uneasy—think that I'm nuts. Sometimes, I would have conversations with them, but they often found my dialogue sounded 'very dumb,' or 'so obvious,' or…Continue
Did anybody else feel really scared waking up from MDD? How did everybody else experience this? I feel like I got a hell of a lot to make up for.
When I unloaded my feelings on wild minds, it actually made a difference. I am turning into a new person. I realize that I'm not alone with MD. I realize that MD has its positives too. It's just another way of thinking and conceptualizing. Ordinary people who don't DD—think people who DD don't live in the 'real world.' I do take interest in Word events and politics at certain times—and do enjoy discussing Donald Trump and his party with my family—that is if I'm in the mood. I'm not a…Continue
I have been a maladaptive daydreamer my whole life...or ever since I could remember. But honestly, I don't remember much. I have close to zero recollection of my childhood. I don't remember last week hardly at all. I have wonderful short term memory, kinda. I remember important things like eating, sleeping, and going to school. But I don't have any memory of little things. I will set my phone down and walk away, I come back in a frantic search to find my phone because I don't remember…Continue
Freelancing at home on my computer, I received strong mental reflections of my past and how MDD has changed everything for me. If I had a perfectly normal mind (non-imaginative) that doesn't DD, I never would have received too much terrible and unpleasant feedback from so many people. I would have had better relationships and a circle of friends if I hadn't gone there; if my mind were different, I'd certainly pay more attention to others, be a more amiable, acceptable and respectable…Continue
I'm sorry that I ever decided to MDD....
1. When I got older, it made me more disoriented, unfocused and foggy, not to mention tired.
2. People are constantly repulsed that I don't listen.
3. I didn't make very many friends...nor got engaged. It makes you extremely quiet and absent around people.…Continue
I signed up for this site a couple months ago and just noticed I finally got approved like a week ago. So that's good. :)
So when I first read about maladaptive dreaming it really resonated with me. A lot. I couldn't believe that maybe there actually was a name for what was wrong with me. I've been so isolated my entire life.
It's kind of a relief. I hope to find the answers I've been looking for.
I do wish that I could have done it so much better in life, that is, if I hadn't started MDD. Of course it enriched me with beliefs that I'd be seeing thrilling things ahead in my future. Well, everything happened vice versa, that is, because I wasn't ever concentrating. I am waking up now that I am 31. Although I am starting self-employment, on a daily basis,
I take thought on how to grow in my business of graphic design and advertising. I look forward to seeing what 10 years will…