The more I am aware of MD, the more I am aware of the necessity of stilling the mind.   Mental chatter can sometimes be the enemy of clarity.   A monk I was watching said he called it "monkey mind" because his mind was chattering on like a monkey.   A rabbi I watched had an entire sermon dedicated to the virtue of stillness.…

He's standing behind me looking over my shoulder long blond hair in his eyes.  He sees that I'm writing on an internet blog he arches a brow at me and smirks.  He points one long slender pale finger at the screen and says, "Now that's interesting, are you sure you want to share this?"

I say: "No.  Not really.  Because this is the TV channel in my head that is on all the time, the one I can rarely turn off.  Besides sometimes you scare me."



He smirks a little and…

Peace

Meditating now

Present moment quiet time

Makes the mind grow still

Breakfast

Bran flakes in a…

I love a man who isn't there

And yesterday upon the stair

He wasn't there again

He isn't…

Lost in the maze of my own mind

I couldn’t grasp that all wasn’t real

It was so sweet that I didn’t want to leave

I didn’t want the truth to surface

I want to drown

Drown in this false reality of mine

The shadows dance to my story

I chased the shadows

From walls to walls in the maze

All was sweet, so sweet

I didn’t want to leave

I reached for the shadows

only to find the solid walls

Cold…

A girl is going around announcing she's atheist.  She strikes me as being an arrogant show off.  She says she's proud to be atheist because it makes her different.  I'm jealous because I'm not allowed to be different.  I'm forced to be conventional.  She said "you're just jealous of me because I'm different."  I'm infuriated.  All my life I have been different but now I'm forced to be normative.  People were jealous of me because I was a free spirit, a hippie.  Now I'm being accused of being…

sorry yall i havent really been on here lately. 

alot of the posts are pretty generic and im focusing more on my own blog

but heres some sketches of some characters ive done recently.

maybe you guys will like them

;p…

Hello MD friends,

I have been having nightmaresque lucid surrealist dreams for about 2-3 weeks. I just noticed this week that I did not have any dreams on the day I had a sufficiently satisfying 5 hour MD session. ...And I am now wondering if my lucid dreams are a release of abundant MD creative energy? 

So I am going to do an experiment on myself to see if the two are linked - by keeping track of the hours of MD per day and whether or not I dream.  Has anyone else noticed this…

Well, this really isn't news.  It's just official now.  Years ago I took an "Aspie Quiz" and scored pretty high.  I've been in contact with Cynthia since 2009, and after reading many sobbing emails from me, she suggested a diagnosis of Autism Spectrum Disorder, and my doc at the time agreed.  No doc I've seen since then has disputed it, so I just took it for granted that I had it.  Apparently it was still unofficial, though.   I've been seeing a therapist for a few weeks, and she knows all…

Eli Somer just emailed me that he started a Facebook group for Hebrew-speaking MDers who want to exchange ideas.  

I don't speak Hebrew, but we may have some people on here who do.  He asked me to let people know, just in case.  Here's the URL.

https://www.facebook.com/groups/1418761875057130/

I was and I am so sick right now.. my teeth hurts, and I have shingles and I'm pretty much heading to the grave right now. Not to mention it's exam time, and I need to get my things together for erasmus and I'll just fail everything....
I don't want to do anything I'm even sick of pointless daydreaming right now, I just want to write my book... Please send me a time turner if you have it...

I didn't know that this... all of this existed until a few days ago. I actually found out about it through a tag in a blog post. I've been epic daydreaming for as long as I can remember. I jog/run when I do and have injured myself multiple times including a broken toe. I honestly thought I was alone in this. 

Hi guys, so I haven't been on here in ages so I thought I'd stop by and say hi~. I suppose now would be a good time to explain how I've been doing with life.

Life is amazing and going rather well for me. A while back I had terrible home issues to which are resolved and things are better than ever. I have made tons of new friends and I don't daydream nearly as much as I use to.

For those new and old I hope this community helps you as it has me. Have a great day and thanks for…

I'm sick of wasting my life away and I intend to do my best to get rid of my MD.

Here's my plan: 

- make a list of things I need to do by Sunday evening

- push myself to do things on that list all day outside of "before bedtime" when it will be ok to daydream

Basically the list will go from basic chores (make sure all dishes are clean) to academic tasks (study for 25 minutes for an exam) to fun personal things (read from a book).

I'll…