Where wild minds come to rest
For the two past months I've been on holidays and I've been doing what I shouldn't do. I didn't go out of my house and I didn't have any social interaction (except for limited conversations with my parents). I always do this when I'm on holidays, but I think it's getting worse. I isolate myself on purpose so I can daydream in peace, so I can be on my "safe cocoon".
It's not that I daydream all day, I have times for doing it (when I listen to music and before sleep). I can do it in…Continue
I am a new member, and like many others very relieved to find out that I am not alone. Since I was a child I have been living in my own fantasy world, daydreaming about many cool adventures. Unfortunately I cannot remember why or how I created the world, there are even rules in it that I cannot easily change or remove.
The odd thing is, 2 years ago I was unable to use the world. You know in those movies where they discover ruins of an ancient city? It was…Continue
This week was hugely stressful, a big big part of the report I had to hand in for work was needed. I was persuaded I had screwed myself over forever and wouldn't make it but I did.
Also, things are starting to happen. I have lengthened my meditation to 15 minutes two times a day and I realise that I feel more in touch with things. For example, I have started to feel hungry again. Otherwise I'm either OMG-feed-me-i'm-fainting or not feeling anything. I'm also getting tired and…Continue
This is what I believe to be the final parts of my very very long daydream.
The Western Wars is the conflict between the largest of my nations. One one side is the…Continue
This is a nation from my daydreams.
The South Empire started off as the last vestiges of the formerly glorious Hoffman Empire (it's full official name is "the Southern Extent of the Hoffman Empire"). When…Continue
So recently I learned about this site and contemplated whether I should give it a shot, so here I am. You see, I've been suffering from a bit of depression and anxiety, perhaps because of what I've been through. Due to these, I immerse myself in my own world so that I could forget my problems for a while. I don't really remember when 'it', the daydreams, started, but all I know it's been constantly bothering me for like, months. At first I…
So, last week was harder. I was not at my own place most of the time (I have a boyfriend) and when I'm at his place it's hard to find a way to meditate. I tried to do it lying in bed in the morning but I just fell asleep again, so it wasn't very useful. I felt less productive than last week as well.
I also had quite severe backlash. When I don't daydream for a while, and suddenly I can, it just goes totally overboard. I was once again walking into traffic, not really noticing…Continue
It's been some time since I've updated everyone with my status, and I apologize for that. Since I last posted, I've put the emotions from my daydreams towards books, having published my first this past summer, and am about to publish my second in a week on my seventeenth birthday. I do not use my plots to create my books, in fear that someone who knows about my mental health would make the connection. I do not wish to have them know what thoughts travel through my mind. I know that may be…Continue
So around two weeks ago, just after I finished my last character Wilhelm Alkern... I move out from my old house. Shortly,the old one was too big for my mom and I. So we packed all things and around 9th February, all of them (include us) moved in new house. Still in same town, and distance between new house to uni are still tolerable. We only move from urban to rural place.
I felt comfortable in new place, too. I have my own room (before this, my room has a door that connected to…Continue
Almost two weeks ago I had an appointment with Ψ and they decided it is high time we do things instead of just talking. The first task was to write down all the advantages and disadvantages of my clandestine life. With one simple gesture I unveiled the dark side of the world so dear to me - I deconstructed my little paradise, piece by piece. To my surprise, finding a counterbalance turned out to be a daunting task.
I realized that my world, that…Continue
I hesitated to put treatment between brackets since it is basically just meditation and yoga and some other exercise. But, for me it's a form of treatment, so I'd rather keep calling it that way.
Squeezing some time in for meditation has been hard. I try to do 10 minutes in the morning and 10 in the evening, that seems to work best. It's very hard not to drift off, and I tend to drift off (1) thinking about things I have to do that day, (2) daydreaming. When I'm doing (1), I…Continue
I feel that I often forget to mention facts about myself, which might be important for why I DD...
I live in a suburb of Chicago, Illinois.
I will be graduating in a couple of months to begin to study as a teacher.
I have traveled to over 50 countries and I love this world that we live in, making me a massive environmentalist. (I set my daydreams in places I've been to)
I've lived in Singapore for a little bit as a…Continue
Hell everyone. I am a 17 year old guy that is basically the the brinks right now. I think I am running out of options . I am not doing well at all. Falling at everything, at school. I have no friends at all. Well I thought I did but not really anyone close at all. I went to a school dance and basically did nothing there at all. Just sat down and my well friend I coukdn't go up and speak to her and she didn't try to come after me. She ignores me when I speak to her anyway at times. I just…Continue
I'll try to resume what has been said in the long phonecall I had concerning treatment for MDD. A lot of things were said but maybe not in that order, anyhow, here's a resume.
The root of the cause, at least in my personal case (and I think it's right) would be a heightened sensitivity, probably processing physical sensations and the outer world differently. Also, in my case I am someone with a high baseline, existential anxiety, I don't feel at ease with the world. When…Continue
Yesterday I wasted another day completely in DDs and on facebook. So, I typed it all out in an email and I sent it to a friend who is a mental health care worker, because I just couldn't do it anymore. I don't know how I am going to get myself where I want to be if I'm constantly being hijacked by my own head. I was panicking at the fact I had done nothing at all that day, and that cranked my DDing up even more. So I told them.
Their reaction was really awesome. They told me…Continue