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February 2013 Blog Posts (63)

Have hope

hey everyone,

I've had MDD since about the age of 9 or 10, so basically all my life. I DD laying in bed with music, so nobody knows what i'm doing. They just think i spent a lot of time listening to music. I also pretend to be talking to other people (like theatre) but i always make sure that nobody finds out.

I always had friends in school but i never felt like i could really connect with them so i daydreamed. At home i always felt the same, though my family is pretty normal.…

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Added by Rita on February 28, 2013 at 2:40pm — 3 Comments

I had a mental assessment yesterday

Hello all! I finally went to a mental health clinic and yesterday I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1, PTSD, and some type of dissociative disorder. When I told the therapist I pace my apartment for 3-4 hours at a time she was shocked. I don't think she ever heard of this. I just hope counselling helps, I've tried it before and it didn't do squat...kinda like beating a dead horse. Has anyone else sought professional help? Any suggestions I should recommend to my counselor?

Added by Rae on February 28, 2013 at 1:42pm — 4 Comments

The Assembly of God

I'm not much of a blogger, or really that social. That being said, I suppose it would just be best to get it all out right now--that is, the structure of what I seem to be experiencing. 

Make no mistake, this is going to be a very, very large post. If you have the time to read it and actually do, I applaud you. 

I suppose it started when I was in 3rd grade. The Pokemon wave had just hit America and I recall me and my group of friends were heavily into it. That…

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Added by Dante A. on February 28, 2013 at 11:00am — 6 Comments

People notice. and other things

It all began when my teacher called on me in front of the whole class. He said; "Zoe" and then I jumped, and he said "Are you okay, you had a sort of spaced out look". And then everyone started laughing. I did too. I think some people already used to notice that  I spaced out a lot and I just wasn't aware of it. I think its some sort of joke amongst the guys in the class about me spacing out because I really was not expecting the laughter. It was as if they knew something. But I'm probably…

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Added by Zoe on February 28, 2013 at 10:30am — 4 Comments

what the counsellor said

i saw a counsellor today to talk about stuff.

We discussed self esteem, anxiety, depression,daydreaming, etc.



to explain md I  let her read that little blurb about md on the home page of wildminds. She wasnt shocked freaked out and said i was normal. She said That I have social anxiety and self esteem issues and my way of coping with it is daydreaming. She says next time i see…

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Added by ashlee on February 28, 2013 at 9:32am — 5 Comments

Up and Down - Mechanism

I felt quite ok in the last years, especially in the last weeks, daydreams came most of the time only like flashes during the day, far less than what I have experienced in my teens and twenties. I know about surpressed feelings like fear and anger, hormones and nutrition (I want to write about this in the forum). So I thought I'm on my best way to cope daydreaming.

Yesterday the down-mechanism hit me again. I thought I had made a mistake at my job (accounting), due to my lack of…

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Added by Iris on February 28, 2013 at 4:11am — No Comments

Toughening up + phones

Okay, so I have a Tumblr account, and I basically can't stop going on there (I've only had it for what, two, two and a half months?) and it's annoying because I'm spending most of my time on there. I've done the same thing with other sites, another social networking site, Neopets, Spartzmedia and stuff, where as soon as I'd get home I'd hop on those sites.

Today, I caught up with the stuff on my Tumblr dash then posted a post, telling everyone I'm not allowed on there for over a week,…

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Added by Wish Upon A Wish on February 27, 2013 at 8:56pm — 4 Comments

It's Getting Easier

It's only getting later and I should be going to bed, but I'm so fed up. I can't convince myself to end this day just so I can experience another. It feels like such a waste.



I don't know why I'm writing this. I never know why I do what I do. I don't even know what it is I'm doing. All I know is that it's becoming easier.



Yes, it's easier than it ever has been to feel sad and accept the feeling, because I don't feel it anymore. There's only a void inside, and a false face… Continue

Added by Paracosm on February 27, 2013 at 8:10pm — 15 Comments

Self Hatred

I probably should have written this when I was actually feeling this, but I'll try my best to explain how I was feeling a few days ago.

Every week or so I have what i call 'self-hatred attacks'. This is where I process my faults, normally my DDing, and start despairing and thinking about all the goals I have which I'm not going to reach (or so I think) because I spent all my time DDing. I convince myself that I will never change and will just waste my potential and end up dying…

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Added by Elizabeth Moore on February 27, 2013 at 4:08pm — 4 Comments

seeing a counsellor tommorow, what should I say?

im seeing a counsellor or therapist or whatever tommorow. My moms making me go because a month ago i had a break down and said i hated myself wanted to kill myself. heh. 

I know what I want to say about that, how should i bring up md? How should I tell her? How do I explain without her thinking its schizophrenia?  should I show her pictures ive drawn or posts from this site? 

Added by ashlee on February 27, 2013 at 3:38pm — 2 Comments

I can't even talk on here!!

So I've asked a few people in chat on here in the past, but no one that's related. I have an extremely hard time talking to people on chat because I start pacing or daydreaming what I'm going to say, and then the convo has moved on. Does anyone else have this problem?

I…

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Added by Melissa on February 26, 2013 at 8:57pm — 7 Comments

I Don't belong In this world

Hello...

So i just got to let this out. I don't want to stop DDing, ever. It's like its who I am. I've been DDing since as long as i can remember even a toddler. When i was about 3 or for I told my mom about "my world" of course im a little kid she thought This was normal to play and pretend and talk to imaginary friends. But now I'm 20... and my 'world' is still there.. Of course she doesn't know this. around 8 years old i realized I wasnt normal.

anywho, to the point. I've…

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Added by Vendetta_Crazzed on February 26, 2013 at 5:58am — 3 Comments

my story

I didn't have a horrible child hood. I wasn't abused or anything. my parents were divorced. To this day at 22 I want a closer relationship with my dad. I see him often but the relationship is lacking. I constantly have an attitude but inside I'm so stoked to be around my father. I started DD when i was about 8-9. I was someone else. My mother(in my fantasy) was gorgeous,affectionate and i was the golden child. My father in my fantasy was handsome..loving i guess..but his character never…

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Added by Nunya Beezwax on February 25, 2013 at 10:02pm — 1 Comment

Why I believe I DayDream!

Hello everyone! I'm Shelly and I think I have figured out all the reasons I DD.

1. I'm overweight and always have been. I was teased and taunted mercilessly as a child and have still been bullied as an adult. I think I come off as being too nice to people and that causes them to feel they can walk over me.

2. I suffer from an embarrassing skin condition that is caused from my skin rubbing together and it has caused me major depression and has made me fear sexual…

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Added by ShellyBelly on February 25, 2013 at 4:04am — 9 Comments

SEX

admit it.  you've had numerous sex scenes in your daydream, I do.



Though I find it awkward and creepy, I feel like im just....watching. Some characters have more sex scenes than others, some characters I just dont want to see that. Im not in my own daydream so i dont like, watch myself have sex with someone (oh god) there just 2 characters having sex and ya sometimes i feel weird .When i was younger i was paranoid people could read my mind and see im thinking about my…

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Added by ashlee on February 24, 2013 at 3:52pm — 7 Comments

My secret world

Hello, Im 20 yrs old. I recently realized that I have a serious problem. I daydream and pace my apartment 7-10 hours a day, I have dropped out of college 3 times because I cannot focus and concentrate on...reality. I dont have any friends or hobbies, well actually daydreaming is my hobby. I recently discovered this website and disorder and when I read about it, I began to cry. I honestly believe I have several other mental illnesses but it is very hard to get doctors to take me serious. I feel… Continue

Added by Rae on February 23, 2013 at 5:57pm — 4 Comments

Betraying "REAL" Life

What about all the time spent dding: Does anyone feel like they are betraying life?  Sometimes I do.....  I have spent the past week dding EVERY WHERE!  We have already discussed dding while driving.  Well I have been doing it at work, when driving and even while having sex. 

 

Are we betraying our "REAL" life and "REAL" loved ones?  HELP!

 

I have been having a hard time lately (emotionally) so I think it has triggered my overwhelming dding lately.  It's the only…

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Added by LJ on February 23, 2013 at 3:17pm — 5 Comments

Coming Out Of The Maladaptive Daydreaming "Closet"

I have to admit I'm not a fan of the whole "verify that you are a REAL person" process on here, but I understand that online spam can be a problem.  Just the same, some of us don't possess the courage that Cordellia Rose has shown by identifying herself as a Maladaptive Daydreamer.   The rest of the world simply doesn't take this topic seriously at all, and I don't believe it will anytime soon. 

I'm at the 4 decade mark, and I NEVER directly discussed this with anybody.  I know I put…

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Added by LostInThought4Yrs on February 23, 2013 at 2:49pm — 2 Comments

My safe place, and acting out daydreams

Most of the time when I daydream, I'm in my room, on my bead, and covered in blankets. When Im in my room, I have to act out my daydreams. It's a habit. For as long as I remember, I have acted out my daydreams. Now when I'm out in public and daydreaming, I keep it down to tapping my foot and constantly moving my hands. I just feel weird when I act out my daydream, especially when my daydream is about 'that'....... But away from that topic.



So does anybody else do this, I know at… Continue

Added by Selena on February 23, 2013 at 4:41am — 2 Comments

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