WARNING: LONG ENTRY IS LONG. I DON'T KNOW WHY I WROTE SO MUCH. AND I'M NOT YELLING AT YOU, I JUST REALLY LIKE ALL CAPS. 

I've decided to start blogging/logging about the progress of stopping my MD. 

None of you obviously have to read this, but I figured since this was a community of people with MD, it seemed appropriate to dump my brain here. 

It's basically to help me figure out when and why I MD and how I can stop it in the…

So tomorrow I will be preforming a solo called The Lonely Birch Tree https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TPdAD1J494U . Wish me luck by the way. Anyways I have bad stage fright if I'm preforming by myself, so I was trying to come up with a way to sort of conquer it. I pretended I was in a fancy dress and was preforming for my dd characters. I even pretended to have an announcer announce my solo and everything. The "crowd was cheering and…

Hey, everyone!

I'm back, Haha. :) Inmy last blog I explained why I wanted to suddenly stop daydreaming...And it's been working. It has  been two weeks since I have daydreamed, and it will be three if I can make it until monday! I'm so happy, haha! MD has been taking over my life, and now it's almost gone.

I just wanted to share a tip for all of you who have MD and really want to stop/lessen the amount you do it. I write the story of my daydreams. Like a novel. I make a…

I haven't picked up a script in years but I am proud of myself for contacting our local theatre company today. I had a chat to a guy about volunteering my time backstage until I get my confidence back. So I'm meeting up with a few people over the weekend about the upcoming production. How cool is that! And quite an easy step.

I love performing, although I'm not sure if I can learn lines the way I used to. Has anyone else done theatre performance before? You can be creative up to a…

From a lonely childhood and words left unsaid

It began late at night as I lay snug in my bed

So quietly creeping, you slipped by me unseen

Or did I invite you here, you imaginary fiend

A whole new life I created just for me

A great place that was mine and just let me be

A family, many kids with Mommy and Dad

Felt more complete than what I already had

A real best friend or maybe I’ll add a few

Who loved me for me and what I loved too

To…

I like to draw and i am a good drawer.... well thats what the others say anyway. Drawing is one of my main hobbies which is one of a few things i do other than daydream. But i have stopped lately because i have a friend who is a AMAZING  drawer. I am jealous of her and i don't care that much that she is way better than me but it must affect me more than i think because i have been thinking, 'Why should i draw she is better than me anyway'. I feel so sad, before i came to high school i was…

I have no idea what i am trying to say and my thoughts will most likely change. All i know is that i am having a hard time with my MDD.

Lately i have been thinking whats the point of living? Whats the point of anything? I know it makes me sound emo or depressed but the strange thing is that i am not and i am normally happy but yet i think these things.

Over the holidays my MDD has gotten worse and i am not proud. I try to stop and do other activities instead but i just don't…

The Doctor and Rose just separated! (Dr Who) On national TV in Australia tonight. How sad. I've seen the episode before, but it's still very sad. But you see, I can continue to watch past episodes over and over again, until I'm sick of it. Remind you of something familiar? Yeah, I'm passionate about lots of things. Some real, most...not.

Is it a dependence on emotions? That keep us DDing? It is nice to feel things and be in control of a situation. And I guess life isn't always like…

Actually escaping bullying at work my real life misery i  have been able to go back to how i feel  when compulsive daydreaming was an advantage a creative tool not a way to block out misery.

Having to work with people today, I am so tense, I just want to be left alone to daydream. I feel like I want to scream as loud as I can to release the stress. It's hard to sit still. I just hate this existance sometimes.

Okay so here's a new poem I wrote. I hope you guys like it.

Lost in my mind.

I can't find,

the way out of this prison-chained Hell,

but it's also a place where I want to dwell.

Happiness and friends it provides though it seems dumb

It keeps me happy while leaving me numb.

Everywhere I roam.

Everywhere the roam.

Leaving a cloud of…

i think i just had one of the most thrilling daydreams i've ever had. i went for a walk around the hills by my house with my ipod, and i was listening to Pirates of the Caribbean theme music, Two Steps From Hell, basically a load of epic film music. i was daydreaming as my character, pretending i was in some sort of battle scene :p it was perfect, because there was no wind, no people out walking their dogs, just me and my imagination. although to anyone who might've seen me, i would've…

I just realized that the email address I have had for over 15yrs starts with "daydream" funny, I don't know why I choose that way back then, I didn't develop MD until this past april. But it is quite the coincidence. Maybe it was destined to be.

It started in early childhood aged about 6 but I remember a specifically slipping into a deeper more involved version one day watching a children’s drama aged 8, everything since then has just evolved – beyond recognition. There was certainly my fair share of trauma in my family during these early years, My dad was mentally ill, my mum lived with a burden heavier than her young years should have had to handle. I had at the time no brothers or sisters and only one friend.

She fostered…

Frustrated and unable to sleep I climbed out of bed; my fantasy world was keeping me awake again, nothing new. I went downstairs to use the laptop as not to disturbed my sleeping boyfriend. I almost laughed to myself as I typed into Google ‘addiction to daydreaming’.

The fantasy realm has always been my other world but this was honestly the first time I coherently thought of it as an addiction and even then half in jest, yet I know in my mind I cannot stop, it is to me a compulsion…

I had the loveliest dream last night.  It was so pleasant that I wished I could have kept living in it forever.  I had a dream that I was daydreaming one of my old story lines, but instead of just being able to see it in my head, I could really see it in front of me.  It was like being inside a movie and being able to watch everything up close.  I could really feel all the emotions, and they were so beautiful.  

It was a love story.  I have this old story line where a father…

"It's like you're a drug / it's like you're a demon I can't face down / it's like I'm stuck / it's like I'm running from you all the time / and I know I let / you have all the power / it's like the only company I seek / is misery all around / it's like you're a leach / sucking the life from me / it's like I can't breathe / without you inside of me / and I know I let you / have all the power / and I realise I'm never gonna / quit you over time...

It's like I can't breathe / it's like I…