Wow, this is really tough to write about but I have to get it off my chest. The last time I was on here I wrote about how I was searching online for my "Dream Guy". I figured I'd never find anyone even remotely close to him. I kept up my search thinking I was doing it just for fun. I feel so guilty but I joined a dating website for my search and guess what? I found a guy that looks exactly like my DD guy, lives in the same state, has the same first name and even wears the same hat in one of…

This daydreaming has been something hard and embarrassing for me to talk about. Another online friend told me to Google Maladaptive Daydreaming and I did. I'm so glad I'm not the only one who actually suffers with this. I have depression and anxiety disorder but the MA has been something constant for me throughout my life. The anxiety held me back socially as I was often too scared to go places. I lived with and cared for my mom until she died and then my dad passed away 7 months later. I…