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Relationships with Others

Started Nov 12 0 Replies

I realize my whole past flopped and I never understood how people honestly felt, I mean, having to sit near me. I didn't see their true colorful feelings and biased thoughts about me coursing inside…Continue

Believed I was invinsible, but really, I can be a better person

Started Nov 11 0 Replies

Being both autistic and doing immoderate day dreaming has put me into tyrannical and embarrassing situations in life. It was very easy for a person to discover my inappropriate behavior in the public…Continue

I was so Quiet

Started Nov 4 0 Replies

I haven't been such a talkative person in many years. Between ages 12-30 I constantly weaved day dreams. Many of my day dreams convinced me that I'd fulfill my life goals. For example, I've always…Continue

Distraction

Started this discussion. Last reply by Jessica Ballantyne Nov 1. 4 Replies

Those who constantly do maladaptive day dreaming, has anybody ever had conflicts with people at work, especially managers and customers? Have they ever detected your day dreaming when your…Continue

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Jessica Ballantyne replied to Vesta Harford's discussion Maladaptive Daydreaming = Naivety
"I am in the same situation as you. My family thinks I'm too stupid to understand world politics and the "Real World" itself. I am so very shocked at "Everything" I did not see before. In my youth, I thought I was an unloved…"
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Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

Relationships with Others

I realize my whole past flopped and I never understood how people honestly felt, I mean, having to sit near me. I didn't see their true colorful feelings and biased thoughts about me coursing inside of them. I just didn't escape me as to why practically anybody didn't want to be friends with me. I had no idea how significantly I was bothering someone else at every given moment. I have heard from my peers that I appeared so very weird and not normal. But, it's also very strange and impolite that…See More
Nov 12
Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

Believed I was invinsible, but really, I can be a better person

Being both autistic and doing immoderate day dreaming has put me into tyrannical and embarrassing situations in life. It was very easy for a person to discover my inappropriate behavior in the public eye. To be honest, my head still blazes as it overcomes thoughts related to past traumas from my childhood, teens and early adulthood. Looking at me up and down, in and out, wasn't easy dealing with life itself. In fact, I came face to face with people who acted like they just wanted to kill me,…See More
Nov 11
darmody commented on Jessica Ballantyne's blog post Crushes
"I don't do much romantic daydreaming. Or rather, I should say that when I moon about crushes it's the regular sort of daydreaming. Not the intensive daydreaming we talk about on this site.  Sometimes I incorporate people on whom…"
Nov 8
Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

I was so Quiet

I haven't been such a talkative person in many years. Between ages 12-30 I constantly weaved day dreams. Many of my day dreams convinced me that I'd fulfill my life goals. For example, I've always wanted to date a guy, perhaps even get a boyfriend, but I was never successful. I was extremely quiet and dead pan looking. Also, I had a hard time connecting with men at all. In fact, most guys in my schools jerked me around for looking "very stupid" on the outside. Even the most polite company of…See More
Nov 4
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Ruchi's discussion Need help
"I was in the same shoes as you. Was an excessive day dreamer since 1999 at age 12. At 29 I went into a transformation that changed my life forever. I just went into this scary funk, realizing what I've been doing all those years. It's has…"
Nov 4
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion How do you guys hide it?
"If your too much into a day dream, it is extremely hard to conceal anything. Your not awake to realize what you are doing. So, people are constantly seeing and hearing things from you. My family notices my behavior all the time and realize they…"
Nov 4
Ele replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion How do you guys hide it?
"Where I come from MD is something still unknown, and when I tried to talk about it, my friends thought i was being paranoid and treated it not as something that has deeply affected my life. I usually daydream at home or while I'm traveling…"
Nov 3
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Distraction
"What kind of job do you have?"
Nov 1
Jen replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Distraction
"I'm the opposite: my job is so mind-numbingly boring that if I didn't daydream I would start strangling customers or something... I started daydreaming because I'm bored, bored, bored and my mind has nowhere to go. My own fault, I…"
Nov 1
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Distraction
"I've worked in jobs for 12 years, and nearly all of them were too short. I had only two jobs that stretched for over a year.Currently I work at Bed Bath & Beyond, but I'm anxious that they'll kick me to the curb before I know it.…"
Oct 31
Deathler replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Distraction
"I walked out on a job earlier this month because of the same thing. I feel guilty because it was my first job, and it was in a brand new clothing store at Times Square in New York City, and I had every reason to love it. But the reasons why people…"
Oct 31
Jessica Ballantyne posted a discussion

Distraction

Those who constantly do maladaptive day dreaming, has anybody ever had conflicts with people at work, especially managers and customers? Have they ever detected your day dreaming when your performance starting going down hill? Were their reactions overbearing and maybe even mortifying? Has it effected every job you've ever had in your life? Many people know how to conceal it, but I never succeeded. It has effected my learning curves, performance, communication and social skills. I was always…See More
Oct 31
Jessica Ballantyne posted a blog post

Crushes

I've literally spent many years having powerful crushes on fantasies. We all have crushes on the celebrities we admire, but we don't know them—and they don't know us. Better yet, they obviously have nothing in common with you, whatsoever. So, how do we know that they'd like you? To be honest, I still have crushes on a couple celebrities, and surprisingly, one of them is long deceased—and was gay. Frankly, nothing is what it seems on the Netflix channel and on the Google pics. I stopped having…See More
Oct 30
Jen replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Probably can't go further than this
"Ulaan, don't you think there are also solid physical reasons why you might start daydreaming? First time I daydreamed was as a teenager, second time now coming into menopause. Both times a massive surge in hormones and changes to the body with…"
Oct 27
Ulaan Gom replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Probably can't go further than this
"Just to further continue with this discussion, if we view MDD as an addiction to certain thoughts or types of daydreams (for me it's almost exclusively to those thoughts and daydreams that feature me as "cool", accomplished, or…"
Oct 27

Jessica Ballantyne's Blog

Crushes

Posted on October 30, 2017 at 8:49am 1 Comment

I've literally spent many years having powerful crushes on fantasies. We all have crushes on the celebrities we admire,

but we don't know them—and they don't know us. Better yet, they obviously have nothing in common with you, whatsoever. So, how do we know that they'd like you? To be honest, I still have crushes on a couple celebrities, and surprisingly, one of them is long deceased—and was gay. Frankly, nothing is what it seems on the Netflix channel and

on the Google…

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Inpractical

Posted on October 25, 2017 at 2:00pm 0 Comments

I understand now—I didn't live in the real world AT ALL. I overestimated life and expected more than I can chew.

I wasn't realistic with myself and everybody around me. I didn't calculate the possibilities, instead I dove into envisaging about my future. I wanted more than what LIFE can give. I really should have appreciated the simple things in life, such as family, pets and friends. I day dreamed too much and ended up in situations that I could have prevented if I was…

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Happ-less Halloween

Posted on October 17, 2017 at 10:11am 1 Comment

Today is the worst day of my life in regards to fully waking up from a dream world I've lived in for two decades. I now face a real life that's never been given any solid attention, while I was "gone" in my head. Only people in my life are my two parents, sister, our dog Gracie, my art teacher and one of my best girl friends who lives just down the road. Though, this certain number of people are not enough for me. I do want so much more than what life gives right now. I dreamt of…

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Straight On Question

Posted on October 13, 2017 at 7:16am 2 Comments

Has anybody looked forward to an amazing future, just to feel broken later on that nothing came true, because your MDD was nothing more than "airy fairy" thinking? Could you imagine you spent 20-40 years doing this, but realizing later what a fool you really were? I'm so thankful it came to a stop at 30, because it could've been worse.

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