Where wild minds come to rest
I am slowly and gradually waking up to smell the coffee beans. After spending 18+ feeling complacent about myself and being so confident towards my future, I had no inclination about the 'real world'…Continue
Jessica Ballantyne has not received any gifts yet
Oh man. Oh bad. I left my bicycle outside my house all night, out on the road. It didn't get stolen or anything.
My parents are starting to worry about me. They think that I'm mentally out of it. Who rides on a bike all day, comes home, but forgets to store it back into the garage? It is not like an expensive car or a motorcycle—but still, it's a bicycle!
It's like with everything else going on in my life. Everything gets fucked and everybody finds out—and I'm clearly the…
It couldn't escape my head until up to now. I do have a sexy friend, she's Indian, who thinks I'm beautiful and perfect as she sees me. Yet, I can't seem to connect with just about anyone else. I have high functioning asperger syndrome, but also I have a very special mind—an imaginative mind. A mind that excessively day dreams on ongoing moments.
This and AS both impairs my ability to drive—but also interact properly with other people, causing many to dislike me as a…
I wonder if maybe i wasn't successful in life because I 'lived in my own world,' rather than having any perception of the real one that's out there. I always though I can achieve something...when really, I always fell on my face again.
For instance, I never won the fancy of any guy I've met. They either found me weird, 'not cool enough', not very smart or rather 'crazy.' Other times they called me a 'little girl', because I was tiny and baby-faced. Most times, they never 'understood…Continue
It is really hard to get people to like me. It's always been that way too! It hurts when so many people get ugly and condescending on you. You're just like, "What did I do, really?" Then you realize, they don't think your NORMAL. They find something very weird and off-center about you. Maybe they get "pissed" when you just stand around appearing all awkward, stupid, 'all shut up,' but also a million miles away. They probably wonder, "Where'd she go? Why are her eyes dazed? Is that…Continue