Where wild minds come to rest
Yep, it is happening, but God knows it's not easy.
A couple of months ago, life slap me right in the face, and it was terrible. I felt so broken and my sense of self got shaken at its very core. At this moment, I knew that my MD was no longer something I should or even could live with, I had to stop it. But what happen when you try to stop an addiction ? It backfires and it's even worst.
So the 6 months which follow this, I was completely numb without even realising it and I kept hiding and drowning myself into MD to try to forget about it.
Then, on my vacation break, I went to a meditation center and this is where I stumble again and lived something not as far as horrible like 6 months ago. And THEN the magic happened.
I was in such a meditative state that I went 4 days straight without Daydreaming AT ALL. ( That did not happen in many years, I usually cannot go an hour without DD)
It was... magic, pure freedom right at my door and then I knew it was possible.
When I got off the center, I relapse, of course, but there was a glitter of hope.
During my meditation, I meet some people filled with compassion and for the very first time of my life, I talked about my MD. They were surprisingly very open and even complimented me, saying that I was alike to many artists and could use my imagination along with my artistic skills. ( I study in Art and I am planning to use this imaginary world that I have created to make a BD ! ! Very exciting project )
Anyway, the point is, having this discussion got me thinking that I could certainly not be the only one. And this is how I found that it had a name : Maladaptive Daydreaming and I also found this forum.
After a bit of Reaserch, I found 2 very useful thing to get my started :
Eretaia Blog : https://maladaptivedaydreamingguide.wordpress.com
Overcoming Addiction - The root cause of every addictions. ( By actualized.org on Youtube )
These are my holy grail on my journey to live in the present moment.
I will probably write an other post on my personal journey, but I just want to put it out there : It is possible, even though I did not suceed yet, I know it is.
I would really recommand, if you feel like MD is taking over too much, to go check out by yourself the 2 links I left above. It is totally worth the time.
See you ^^