MDD distracts me from my environments

[Silver Swan]

I do not ever "think" about what needs to be done around the house, such as the garbage, laundry, dishes, putting things away, writing food supply on a board and replacing the toiletries. My mom likes to tell me about the latest news and what is going on in the house; what I need to know. She is a perfectly normal person and I respect that. However, she's frustrated with my incapability to stay with her and listen to what she has to say. She's also can't believe I don't seem to care about our living environment and what needs to be minded. If I was an average minded person, like any Joe, I would've been more mindful and drawn to the factual contents that surrounds my environment too. In my life, this is not often the case, as I do prefer the story that takes place in my head. As much as MDD distracts me at home, it also distracts me in the outside world.

Much to my surprise, this same case scenario that has effected any relationship I had with other people. They too often wondered if I was listening to them and why I wasn't in anyway showing any care to the events happening around me. Some were sharp-toned and smart. Some were very whiny and resentful. Others were pretty pissed and lashed out a good deal. My inability to stick with it has lead people into thinking of me as so very weird and soft-headed. I can't count the many mileage walks I made down woody trails and paths, 'wondering why my life is the way it is'—Why it's so tough to win friends without them appointing how mentally unsound I appear to be. Acknowledging to how often I can't always listen or utter out a few words now and then, this sometimes does rings a bell. Though, I still find it hard to believe this is the reason why I have no 'social circle.'

[ryder]

 I feel you :), I suggest going to a therapy because  it really tough having this life and being all by yourself, it will change your life for the better