Hello! *beaming smile*

[scooby]

Hi there  *waves*

 
I'm new so thought i'd post on how i belive i have MD and when i think it
started, sorry if its a bit long.

I belive it was always there, i always had a great imagination slipping of into
my own world. Just as well because no one wanted to be my friend, i was the girl
that smelt, had matts in her hair, was riddled with nits, never done her
homework, couldnt do a simple adding up sum, even teachers disregarded me. Dont
get me wrong though, although my parents were'nt very good at bringing me up
they loved me and done their best despite their problems.

I think it really became MD when 13 - 14 When I stopped being quite so naive and
realized what my uncle and neighbour had done to me was wrong so i started
thinking about telling someone and practised what i would say and what they may
say, ect. After a while my practising was theraputic enough and liked the fact i
could control how the convosation went i felt i didnt need to tell anyone and it
mostly developed from there.

Now im 23 i have a 15mnth baby and a boyfriend! I've had deppresion and anxiety
for years and some attempts at suicide. I now have a psych and all that jazz,
but have problems with them. Proberbly because ive made up all these wonderful
"professionals" of my own that the real ones just dont cut it. Same as my
wonderful boyfriend, he is such a good man and that, but he still dosnt match up
to the perfect man i created and spent most of my time with.

So.. i've done alot of searching as off two days ago after finding out this has
a name(from a very helpful person on yahooansewrs). And have realized the online
MD community is quite small, so may see you out there.

Thanks for reading, and sorry about the bad grammer.

Bye :)  *wave*

[Angel]

Hi, Scooby!  I'm new here myself.  Its pretty exciting to find all these other people who do the same thing.  I just told my therapist about my MD last night, she says "We'll learn together."  Now that I think about it a bit more, its not just me and her, all of us are learning together as we share our experiences.  I hope to see you around!

[scooby]

Good to hear you told your therapist! I've got councelling tommorow and i've decided im going to print of some stuff and take it in with me. I'm not going to tell my community mental health nurse (CPN) thou, he would definatly laugh me out the room.

Yeah its a hugh learning curve for everyone, far more for people that haven't got this to understand. Considoring bipolar was given an accurate discription in the 1850s and the average joe bloggs is just starting to understand about it now.

See you about!

Angel said:

Hi, Scooby!  I'm new here myself.  Its pretty exciting to find all these other people who do the same thing.  I just told my therapist about my MD last night, she says "We'll learn together."  Now that I think about it a bit more, its not just me and her, all of us are learning together as we share our experiences.  I hope to see you around!

[Angel]

Its hard finding good doctors/counselors/etc even for "known" conditions.  It took me forever to find a good doctor to treat my migraines.  Many who don't have the knowledge of something choose not to take the time to learn about it or brush you off like you're making things up or treat you like a guinea pig for the latest drugs.  I say only tell the health providers that you are comfortable with, and it sounds like you already have that in hand.  :)  Let us know how it goes.

[scooby]

Thanks for messaging back :-)

 

I went to the councelling today took a small discription of MD. I've been really lucky with my counselor, shes really supportive. Just everyone else thats supposed to at least try and understand like psychiatrist, mh nurses ect.

Anyway counselor was really good. I wasnt totally honest with her thou... the more embarissing things about my MDing like there not all made up people, and most are people ive meet. I didnt tell her because most of my daydreaming involves me being counselled and comforted, and some have included her :-/  Dont quite know how to tackle that.

I've not been guinea pigged for the latest drug, but feel i was a guinea pig to test out the postnatle depression ward GGRRR!! still gets my back up! 

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